What is this?

I never read someone's blog before in AFF. What do they write here? Who will read it if I post one? Ah, I'll just do it. I really have something to tell you, especially, to the readers of my "Haeju" fanfic. 

I don't know where to start tho.....

Hmm.... I really enjoy writing my fanfic. Writing is my ultimate passion. No one cannot stop me from doing it. It's just, lately, I feel exhausted. The first reason is because I think people don't get excited with the story anymore. It lacks of views and the subcribers count doesn't grow. I know it's stupid to care about that, but somehow it makes me sad. I'm saying this as I'm asking for more support. It's not "Boohoo~ Why do people leave me~ Please support me~". No. I just want to satisfy the readers. I'm not a professional writer, but I've been writing stories for almost 10 years. I wanna grow. I wanna get better. The problem is.... I don't know how! Yeah, I read some stories that interest me. I also watch some movies and TV show to analyze the formula of making a proper story. I'm looking for some refferences to learn. But, like I said earlier, my fanfic stops growing. I just don't know how to fix that.......

It's also kinda hard to balance what satisfy me and what satisfy the readers.

Someone once said, "Every works has its own fans". No matter how peculiar what we create, there will always be someone who likes it. I believe that. People also say that the most important thing in writing is having fun. But I always enjoy it! I always have fun in writing no matter the condition is. It's just, somehow, knowing that people like what I write motivates me even more. I used to write stories on my blog. I enjoyed it, but no one read it. Maybe 1-2 people, but it's always the same person. Now that I meet so many people here I feel so happy. Having readers is something new for me. I like it :)

I just cannot end "Haeju" fanfic now.

Do I need to write about something else? Do I need to take a break from it? The problem is.... I have a deadline. My holiday will be over in February-March next year. And after that I might not be able to write for 2 years. I need to do a co- program as a medical student. FYI, I hate that. That's why I need to continue writing before it's too late. Since I've started a new season, I make a target to reach 50 chapters. The lack of readers makes me doubt if I should continue or not. Also, there is this one more problem: I have so many drafts await. But I hold myself to post it every 3-7 days. It's bothering me not to post what I just write! >.< After writing (and editing) a chapter, I'm so dying to show it to people. I decided to hold myself because (I think) it will give me more views. It's also let the readers take their time to read a chapter. But is it right to do that? Should I just post it without worrying about that?

I guess I need to discuss this with an expert in AFF.

I have a lot of questions while posting my fanfic. Do people like short story more than the long one? Is 1000 words consider too long? Do people like a one-shot or something divided to several parts? Well, I guess people just like a good story. So, is my story not good enough? :( Is that the real problem? Hahahaha! Well, I cannot change much about how I write my story. There is also this lack-of-vocabs problem that's bothering me. I just don't have time to read much. I'm afraid tho. I'm a medical student, so I should read my studies, not my ficitons. Ah, I miss the good old days when I could read whatever I wanted without worrying about anything. A young-adult life is hard! Hahaha~

THANKS!

That's it. I've told you my concerns about my fanfic. I don't know what to expect after this, actually. Maybe nothing will change. But, at least, I have poured down what I feel. I feel better now ^^ Congrats for anyone who's reading this blog post so far haha... It's so freakin' long, isn't it? Maybe kinda cringy as well. Welp! I'm that kind of person. Nice to meet you too lol :))