Luhan's girlfriend, hiatus, crying hunhan heart and wishes of a fan who wants Lulu happy

I know this blogpost is uncalled for, but I think my bloodshot eyes held my tears for hours already just to be able to fulfill my duties as a student, and I just want to vent it out now.

 

Life is . Research with uncooperative groupmates, upcoming national exam on Tuesday, upcoming final exams next week, and more and kore deadlines. My head is throbbing incessantly, my body is getting noticeably feeble, and my sleeping patterns are getting worse. I even sleep on my 2 hr trip back home from the univ because of so much exhaustion. I had been working on those nonstop and my parents are even the once who tell me to take a break... but then, this afternoon, I could not bring myself to stop. I want to distract myself from the news... that Luhan has a girlfriend (who is his co-star in his upcoming drama) and announced it to the world on his Weibo.

 

I, for the record, always tell that, "yah, my oppas and geges deserve to be happy. They make me happy and they are humans who need to pursue their own happiness too." I even clench my teeth in anger at the disrespect exo ls showed exo in that JYP party show. I always said that Jonghyun and Shin Sekyung shouldn't have broken up, and that Minhyun should start dating. I desire my idols to date and be happy...

 

But then, i was really taken aback at the surprise of Lulu's relationship. Of all the days, why did it have to be one of my lowest days? He deserves to be happy. He has been a workaholic and a lonely boy the past years and he is like 27 already and he should be married at now tbh. But why is my heart betraying the logic of my mind? Why is there a slight breaking inside when I read about the news? And why does he have to date someone just 3 yrs older than me ㅠㅠ heol i should have been in china and maybe i could have charmed him--//slapped. Kidding, just joking guys. Im trying to just laugh this off

But srsly. Xiao Luuuuuu~~~~ ㅠㅠ I want to be happy for you and congratulate you with whole my heart but my HunHan hearteu is crying ㅠㅠ im not delusional and i dont believe that they are a couple (but i profess that their bond that started since predebut days still exists and i can even show you proofs FIGHT ME) but I am still ;----; I dont know what to do. I cant bring myself to continue writing the Hunhan fic im working on now ㅠㅠ idk if i can even write as of now because i will always be haunted by the thought of "Lulu is taken already. He won't be happy if you continue doing that."

 

Luhan gege~~~ I know I am acting selfishly in what I feel but I still hope that you will be happy ㅠㅠ you deserve it, baby deer. You make me happy as much as you make millions of fangirls happy. Heollll i hope you can cope up with the age difference (he is at the marrying age and the girl just turned 20 and ofc wants to do a lot of things and enjoy her youth) and be strong~~ wishing you a fruitful relationship full of love and even if it hurts now, I will still support you because I love you ;-; ㅠㅠ please make our King Lulu happy, Xiao Ting jiejie.

Im so pissed with myself. Why cant i fully be happy for him? I know that if it is some member like Jongdae, Joonmyeon or any other person, it is okay for me. But why cant I be sincerely happy for my bias? ㅠㅠ I'm being so unfair for Lu ge ㅠㅠ

Guys pls lets not leave Lulu. Let us be by his side. We may be sad and devastated but let us just wish him the happiness he deserves. Let us support his upcoming drama and movie and future activities. Let us make him feel supported and loved

 

And yes, my writer's block is real and I am officially on HunHan writing hiatus. I will reply to msgs tho. I just cant bring myself to write about HunHan now. I will be back on December~

 

Heoool //cuddles my Boglegel plushie who i named Xiao Lu

 

Edit: some people are mad because Lulu stated the news simply. Of course. What do you expect? A LONG APOLOGY SAYING "IM SORRY I HAVE A GF IM SORRY IF IM HAPPY RIGHT NOW"? He has the right to act like a normal human being for Pete's sake

If you bash Luhan gege and Xiaoting jiejie, FIGHT ME. #LuhanProtectionSquad

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