September 20th, 2017

Just last night, I was watching old videos of B.A.P and I suddenly remembered that I used to write a few stories on this website. I easily found my account and nostaligia just hit me when I read my old stories from quite a few years ago, almost four years ago? Around that time.

I wanted to log into my account today and continue writing those incomplete stories, but I had forgotten which email I had used back in those days. I couldn't log into my acount and it was quite...sad...

I had a story about Bang Yongguk and Song Jieun, but I ended up forgetting about Yongguk as I started to favor Jongup, Daehyun, and Zelo more. Right now, Daehyun and Zelo are still my biases even after so many years.

I had another story about Jung Eunji, Nam Woohyun, and Kim Sunggyu that was surprisingly well-written for me (I'm a terrible writer) and I had no idea how to continue that story after two chapters, but I really did like that story. Sigh.

I want to start writing again, but I'm scared. I haven't written in a long time and I don't think I'll be good at it at all. I've tried so hard to improve in the past but my writing style always remained mediocre. I've improved many times in the past since I did stick with my fanfictions in the past (although I've never been able to complete a story, sadly enough, due to my lack of imagination and dedication) but I'm still here...not writing.

I want to write a story now, but I'm not sure who I should write it about.

I like Hwang Minhyun...? I don't have a plot in mind for him, however. And I like writing about at least two main characters.

I keep having dreams about Minhyun but I have no idea which idol to pair up with him.

I could write about Jieun and Daehyun? Zelo?

Sejeong?!?!?!?!

Eunji and Seo In Guk???????????