170822 - Recovering
If I really have to be honest, I'd say that AFF is actually a toxic in my life. I'm constantly hoping for people's opinions (actually begging for people to leave comments and upvotes to my stories) that I almost forget the real reason why I started writing. The most rational thing I can do now is leave this website, and start anew, where nobody knows me. Where I hope I will stop begging for people's acceptance and appreciate myself more.
But I've grown attached to AFF, I even made a small number of people that I can consider as friends, so I decided not to leave. I will continue writing here, but I will stop waiting for people's acceptance. My stories are no longer locked with 'subscribers only', a start to the new me not caring about the amount of readers that I have. I will continue writing because that's what I love to do, not because I hope people will love them.
As of now, I have no promises in updating anything. I'm slowly getting back to writing, and I don't feel the need to rush anything. If you love my writing, I welcome you to stay. But if you feel like the wait is not worth it, it's alright. I wish you happiness and may you find a better author from me :)
In my previous post, when I opened up about my situation of being depressed at that time, to those who cared enough for me to leave encouraging words, I love you guys ♡ Thank you for your kind words, they did help me a lot in getting back up again. I am still recovering, and I can't say if I will ever be fully recovered. I failed in getting a place in college again, so I was rather a mess today. But this time, I'll try not to get too weakened. I will do my best to stay positive and high-spirited at all times, and not let the darkness pull me back in. Once again, I love all of you.
Please, pray for a better me. I'll pray for everyone's health and happiness.
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