Is it just me who wonders if there is more that what I have now. My summer holidays are almost over and my birthday is coming up which I am dreading because I feel old and there isn't much I have achieved yet? 

I'm in my twenties and next year in April I will get my A level (yes I'm super late but I worked for three years because I didn't know what to do) and what do I do next? How do I know what I want to study...or do I even want to go to university? It's so hard to decide what to do because it will have a huge effect on my future. I can't even cut my hair short, how can I choose courses in university.

Please tell me I'm not the only one having doubts and being afraid of these kind of things. I want to be more than what I am right now. I want to wear different clothes because I'm too afraid to experiment. I wanna wear heels instead of sneakers on some days. I can't use eyeshadow without looking like a toddler that found mom's make up bag.

What keeps us from doing things?