Hi everyone! It's been a while, and I'm sure that we've all been excited when the Queens of KPOP finally dropped their first teaser. Everyone went wild, and SONEs from all around the world cried their hearts out most especially during their 10th anniversary last August 5, 2017. It's been a long journey for our girls and for them to be able to stay strong together as a group for ten years is an amazing achievement.

Holiday and All Night were BOPS. I know most of us probably had mixed feelings when their MV teasers came out, but we should've known better. The teasers didn't give justice for the music video and that was why we were blown away by the 2 (3, if you count the All Night clean ver) music videos.

All ten tracks in Holiday Night were masterpieces, with some of the tracks being written by the members themselves. It just goes to show how much our girls have grown, improved and became true artists. And I'm very proud of them. Their fanmeeting last August 4th was one of the most memorable events for SONEs all around the world. I'm sure we all cried (bc I did) as our girls performed songs from their very first album, and also shared their stories and their tear-jerking messages to each other as they looked back on how they spent their ten years together.

But just as the party has started... it had to end quick. 

The news that Inkigayo would be SNSD's last stage was very shocking. I personally couldn't believe it too. I mean, I waited two years for a comeback only for SM to say that their promos would only last for A WEEK?! Come on. :( 

So on their last day of promotion, I really wanted to cry. I even told myself that after the tenth anniversary comeback, I could leave all of this (the Kpop world) to focus on the real world, to focus on my studies. I literally waited for those 2 years to pass because this is just my second comeback. I became a SONE during the latter part of Mr Mr era (yeah, I know) so Holiday Night was supposed to be my second time to experience a comeback in this fandom but... :(

There were lots of drama going on, new ones were being dropped each day. Like the issue of juniors disrespecting them by not even greeting them, fan wars, shows cutting them out, etc etc but I held on. I said to myself... as long as SNSD is happy and they're promoting, it's okay. I can take it.

I'm so sad for SNSD because the girls didn't know about this. SM literally said "Full-scale promotions" but look how they messed everything up. The girls obviously looked forward to this comeback as much as we all did and I know they probably prepared so much so it's sad that they are the ones apologizing to us when it's not even their fault.

I know some might say that they probably stopped it abruptly for Yuri's sake but guys, did you forget that SM really said that Yuri's ankle injury won't get in the way with their comeback?? So why?? Why, SM, WHY?! TT_TT

Some SONEs probably just came back and got together one more time for this special event. Some SONEs probably would have considered this as their first comeback, thus being nicknamed baby SONEs. Some SONEs probably considered this as their last comeback, knowing that they have to focus on their lives now, after a long and fun journey with the girls but... did they deserve all this??

The girls have expressed their sadness too, and with hundreds of fans lining up for their music shows, they couldn't express their gratitude enough on stage every after takes that they also had to prepare drinks and snacks for the fans. Some of them even felt the need to post in SNS how much they appreciated every single one of us and how we shouldn't push ourselves too much. I feel bad that they're feeling bad about us feeling bad. I almost cried with Yuri, Sooyoung and Taeyeon's IG messages.

I could write a book on how frustrated and irritated I was, most especially because SNSD was my source of inspiration and energy for the things I'm going through right now, so I thought maybe a few weeks with SNSD will help me recover but... what now? :/ I was really dependent on them. My midterms is scheduled this week and I was hoping I could at least draw out happiness and inspiration, but they just had to end this way.

It's like I even forgot what I was doing before they came. It's like... living in the dessert for a long time, with the clouds telling you that there will be a storm but it only ended up a drizzle... then you're back in drought. I was literally heartbroken when they suddenly left like that. They just said hello, then the next day, they had to say goodbye again. It's heartbreakingly sad. 

I'm not even sure how much longer I could wait again. I trust in the girls. I trust that they won't let their 10th year just end this way. I trust Taeyeon that she's hinting about something when she kept on using three CD's in her IG posts. I trust Sooyoung when she said that their next album will be out soon. I know this is SM we're talking about and a repackage is almost impossible for a girl group but I'll wait for them. :)

As of now, I'm barely getting through each day. But just like before, I will wait. I will wait until I return. Because I may not have been here from the start but I'm going to be here until the very end.

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Which Holiday Night side track is your favorite?

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If there's anyone who's as heartbroken as I am and would want to talk it out, I'll be here. :) I'd like to know what you guys think too in the comments, or by sending me a message. Also, what's your favorite track in Holiday Night? :D