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So firstly, if you're a subscriber of mine and you're wondering when I'll update, the answer is probably not anytime soon heheh... and I'm really sorry for that TT TT. But life has been tough lately, and I've find myself kind of down like 3/7 days a week. School has been stressful!! Also... my thumbdrive died on me TT TT so it might take some time to get everything back in order.

 

 

Anyways, as you may have noticed, I've never really written any blog posts before, purely because there was nothing worth writing about in my life. But things have changed recently after I turned 18. All because of this one guy.

So let's call him K (cause his surname starts with a K). Now, K is 2 years older than me and currently he's in the same class as me. He's super cute, and he's basically my ideal type <3! I can't say that we're close because we just got assigned to the same class this year, and we've never really talked, but I can't say we're strangers either. In all honesty, I've liked him since last year when school first started, and he knows.

So you're probably wondering: if he's your ideal type, and you're in the same class, and he knows... why aren't you guys trying to get to know each other?!?

The reasons are simple. One, I'm awkward around the guy I like ( I mean who isn't right?). Two, he knows but he isn't interested. Three... he's already attached ( he knew wayyyyy before he got attached that I was interested in him, don't mistake me for someone who falls in love with someone who is already attached! )

 

I wish I could say that I really hate him, that his girlfriend is a bad person, or anything else bad about the both of them. But no, they're both really sweet and they look so good together that even I approved of them.

But it hurts me when I see the both of them together. Sometimes I can't even catch my breath because I'm so overwhelmed with the sadness that I feel towards them. I truly want to get over him, but it's hard knowing that he's right there and I can't even say hi to him. I myself thought that I could get over him if he became publicly attached.

 

But besides that, I really want to make friends with him, but I think he has misconceptions of me based on the things my friends have said and done. And I just really want to turn back time and correct those impressions that he has of me.

 

So yeah, honestly this post doesn't make much sense, but if any of you feel me, then please give me some advice. Cause it's gotten so bad that I feel like my heart is breaking into tiny pieces every time I see him.

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