currently online with my ipad at hospital,waiting for my friend's surgery to end. she was badly injured because of being bullied

by a group of junior just because she always stick with me?? i admit i was quite popular among the junior because i was the 

school athlete. this friend of mine,she always stick together with me even though i already got a boyfriend. she once told me that

she like me. but i thought she like me as a friend,her bestfriend.  this is why i like being alone then to be with other people.

because i don't want this to happen. my feelings started to change. i was so confused with my relationship with her,we were

just friend,not more or less. we always spending the time together,more than im being with my boyfriend. i always thought "ah~it

was fun joking around with her. indeed my best friend!". but now,why i felt so lonely and hurt at the same time? my boyfriend 

called me more than 50 times already,but i never answer until i got a text from him "Let's break up". i just sigh.. no tears coming 

out from my eyes. the surgery was carried out for 5 hours already. and i..still waiting,sitting all by myself,praying that she will be 

okay. 

and if..the surgery is succesful..i wonder..if i should tell her about my feeling...?

should....i...?