and by that...i'm not trying to refer to any of your oppars in produce 101 that you consider too pure for this world or whatnot...

but the members of pureboy...who participated in produce 101

Lee Seokyu and Han Minho.

Actually...not just them...but the remaining of Pureboy members too...but you wouldn't care about them anyway...since they're not in some fancy show...and neither do they have any popularity/recognition...

These kids are going through very messy situation...well, i think their whole existence as idol have been muddled in a great tangled mess bcuz they're under a sick jerk...and not in any level fans of other groups/companies can probly comprehend...bcuz this is really weird n sick n believe me, you don't want to know...and i won't tell further either...all those who worried about this oppar n that oppar in produce 101...n how it's their last chance, or their company would disband them even though they're so freaking popular in the show cuz that made so much sense....no...all your oppars situation are childsplay when i think of the ones going through real shiet like this.

i'm thinking what's going to happen now...with the youtube situation i told about earlier...

at first people thought good news on the way as in comeback...bcuz seokyu told in his most recent broadcast with a youtuber to be patient n anticipate good news....but i think we forgot the possibility that maybe seokyu's definition of good news is different than ours...bcuz...the kid does seem to have a very special mind n personality of his own...

and Seokyu has been very morbid lately in his own unique way...no more selfie of himself...instead he's busy observing and worrying over the life condition of animals he saw outside..and going on walks at 4am in the morning...he's just worrying me...

the rest of the members have just disappeared...quieted down...

and i wonder if this will be the end...

idk...my heart breaks everytime i think of these children with dreams and talents taken advantage of not even by the normal standard but a whole nother level...

even though i wanted so badly for a comeback from them as a group....now looking at the situation i just pray for their great escape from the mess...and hope they'd be picked up by other agency...somehow...someway...sometime...

i can't even think of a way to make the situation a lil better...

but all i can ask...or think we can do...if any of you care about them...spread the love around aloud...let them know that they're not irrelevant/unwanted/invisible...i don't care what medium...youtube/tumblr/twitter/fanfic/instagram/whatever...just find a way to give them a shoutout in your own way if you care...i hope somehow...Seokyu/Minho/Haru...and the rest newer members...will get the message to keep fighting...somehow the silence is worrying me...like...are they even alive? it's hard to believe/accept them just disappear/move on...when they're always so passionate in their shows whatever shiet they had to carry out/go through...

it's crazy that every other kid had a chance to have their fates improved in some ways through produce 101 but for seokyu n minho...things only went for the worst...now, these are kids whose fates could really change from death to life if only they had ranked high...(still think minho was a much better center than donghan for call me baby n to think that donghan became popular after becoming center in his team...)

in my over a decade of kpop...this is the first time i meet a group that makes me so sad and heartbroken bcuz all i can do is witness their confusing messed up state of existence, unfortunate all around...they made Battle's fate so much better in comparison...this coming from Battle hardcore everlasting fangirl. lol cringy much.

this is the first group that made me feel completely at a loss...how can i save these kids...T^T...

wait...why am i so bothered by other people's lives...when mine...err....

still...

at least battle went through the tough times already and now are still strong going for their respective dreams, while living their lives, and keeping their friendship...it's a beautiful ending to a depressing situation...but in pureboy's case...why do i feel pessimistic to get such continuation from this depressing state....

ah....i'm drained now not bcuz i'm tired but just this...hopelessness and sadness...and not to mention i kinda injured myself yesterday so now i can't even lie down properly, but it's not that serious, no need to worry...lol...see ya later...

...can we talk a lil about kard...? i just saw their album preview...very Somin biased...whoever saying no is seriously in the greatest denial...why so hard to just admit it....the pride of so called 'real' fans of kard is so great eh that they can't admit to any flaw that happens in all groups/managements...actually...i've seen way too many toxicness in this kard fandom, as a dsp stan for so many years before i grew detached...never thought i'd see a day like this where a dsp group fandom filled with toxic...it's new...n that just well...made me raise my white flag....no matter how good they're or how catchy the songs...if the fans annoy me...i can't bother to care that much with them...bcuz that would mean i'll always see their toxic fans...so, yeas, fans behaviour does relate to their idol...bcuz we see the fans more than the idols, they're like the ambassadors to some degree...like it or not...it had relation...says who? me. hahaha...i'll still check out their songs and maybe watch the videos from time to time if i suddenly crave for some coffee and muffin...but other than that...i can't seem to bother much...added to their very westernized vibe...i really don't mind carefree kpop group or one who speaks english a lot n sings english a lot, you can do that while being who you are...but...kard...idk i feel they're trying so hard to be western...that's not something that pulls me in...since i'm no western haa...so...can't relate sorry....next...

Got a dollar to spare? 

so i just went around aff and saw blogpost about THIS and i'm just reading through the website now...MASC...as i've written bout before...have great songs...

i discovered them through the same chart where i discovered new groups i actually came to like...miraculously considering i'm very detached from mainstream kpop most time...

i found n liked them before VAV,...though i'm kinda off the loop now cuz you know me and my ever changing phases...but yeah, like their music? got a dollar to spend or know someone rich who'd be interested? spread it to them...xD

and lastly of course...VAV...not.

actually...i didn't even want to talk about anything else other than Pureboy today...bcuz their situation already put me in gloomy mood...though i know VAV will always make me happy again...

well...let's just say i'll be posting my VAV dose later...when mnet actually release their perf video on mcountdown so i'd have vav vid for the day to post...and today they'd be having two schedules too....

oh...but...remember my last post about showing appreciation...so...Ace is not the only one...xD...i'm glad...to find Ziu has his own way...by liking all comments on his instagram...i noticed all comments had like except for newer ones when i went in...so to experiment since it's been a couple hours passed...i went and send in a comment...and some hours later...he already 'liked' it alongside all other comments he received...lol. i wonder if he even read them...hahaha(i don't think he'd understand all random languages spoken to him in the comments :p)...but...nice gesture, really...and he try to use english too in his posts...though it's always just good bye vampz xD...i hope he'd change it to good night...or sth...bcuz good bye sounds....sad....T^T...i'm so proud of my VAV kids for their thoughtful gestures...like i said...i didn't expect this extent from idols...especially like what Ziu did(he might not have english skills as Ace, so he put in more efforts for the likes instead)...they don't have to...but when they did...it makes fans feel a degree of appreciated...n so far...i continue to be impressed by VAV...in more than one way...

oh...and Hwang Sooyeon liked my comment too..../dead/....ahhhhhhh...even though she had liked my blabbering that mentioned her name on twitter many times...but this time i didn't mention her name...n i was commenting on EB's vid..and she didn't exactly hit like at every  single comment...so....my female bias from produce 101 noticed me...aaahhh...lmao. (excuse this...embarrassing behaviour...i'm new to instagram n stuffs lmao...now all i do is stalk my fav kpop idols, k-indie/krock bands and random food accounts) n...i just noticed she has youtube channel too....and that Rainbow members had theirs too...whoa whoa...too many input n things to check out...

can Pureboy have their own youtube channel too...? as in a real one? not one hijacked by unrelated videos and then said to be nothing to do with them even though it had their name...? ugh.