i know the title doesn't make sense. don't kill me...you know my style already rite?

the night is still early...so i figured i'd write some random pointless things as usual...instead of updating fic of course...lol.

 

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1. going against destiny.

today i met someone i last met almost three years ago...who didn't remember me probly since i'm just a customer...but the person remarked something that was the same thing he commented about me the last time i went there...and it made me wonder if his comment was a hint/sign that i'm going against my supposed destiny. because he doesn't know me at all. but his words hit a relevant bittersweet spot.

any explanation/elaboration? nope. haha...just weird feeling. 

it's nothing romantic fyi...lol. he's an ahjussi who owns a shop in my neighbourhood since i was a kid...

 

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2. making efforts to appreciate.

yknow...being obsessed with VAV over the past week or sth...made me learn quite a few things already...besides about them.

particularly about 'making effort'...yeah everyone makes effort n yadayada...

but seeing how Ace always having some part of caption...even a few sentences in english...as an international fan hopeless in korean language...i feel appreciated. well...not always...there were some time he doesn't have caption or just short korean ones...but most of the time(n since this year it's kinda...always)...there'd be english caption too...

i mean...kpop idols aren't obligated to use english...i myself feel annoyed when i see fans demanding kpop idols' channels to do english subs...you like kpop on your own accord...they don't force you...why should they provide everything?

but....as kpop is really a rather global thing...and pretty sure they're all aware of it...

it's nice to see when there are those who actually make effort to show they acknowledge your existence...

that feeling of appreciated.

many times...even kpop idols from other countries who we've been told could speak english cuz they lived overseas n yadayada...even they...not all of them bother to use english...bcuz they're not obligated to, and that's fine...

but when i meet one random kpop idol who show you how it feels to be appreciated(he's not even one of those english genius member stereotype just for being a foreigner/living overseas), i can't help wondering...why can't others show appreciation too, by appreciating? not asking them to use english all the time...from time to time...they're not obligated to...but...a little to show acknowledgment would be nice don't you think? i can't buy they don't know english...hello/goodnight/good morning/thank you/love you/take care/have a nice day...simple words would do...surely they know at least that much? and surely they are aware of their international fans...

i begin wondering why is it so hard to appreciate...

why am i thinking this unimportant thing out of nowhere...

aish...

it's Ace's fault T^T...he raised the bar so much...and now i unknowingly have started to become greedier and expect more...tsktsk...hahah...

i need to conclude this in a way that would save me from being bitter at other idols i love...

maybe...ace is THE bad one...he's a player...i mean look at how nice he treat all the members that he even became their ideal type...lmao...

please spare me out...T^T...have mercy...

eh....no..but please don't stop those little captions i could understand...it makes me feel that my existence as an international fan...is acknowledged...do you know that feeling...that feeling of being appreciated...it's rare in kpop...we always place layers of rose tinted glasses in front of everything so that opparunnirs feel so awesome n perfect even without having to do much of anything...

but a direct gesture that really says something...i find it rare...or maybe i just don't follow enough ppl to know more...

but now i feel appreciated...and it feels good. 

it doesn't even always have to be this kind of gesture...like spiderman (and i noticed today, EB too omg!) have liked my comment...a guitarist unnir from my fav band replied to me, a singer of band i like sent me CDs...a singer personally messaged me to relay his thanks, a member from my fav idolgroup replied,...but those gestures might be too big for mainstream/active idol...i don't expect them at all...bcuz they'd have thousands of fans to cater if they start being nice to a few...that's why i'd rather them just post what they want...

but a small gesture like this...i feel...goes a long way to make me feel appreciated enough yknow...

oh well...

i guess i feel a lil overwhelmed whenever i find those english parts in his posts(it's not like english is even my own first language or anything to be this dramatic...pfft...lol...but i can't possibly expect them to use my language can i? lmao...)

maybe i'm just making excuses to...make a post to actually share this here...

VAV's perf of the day!!! yay!!! (the official channel has yet to post the perf so had to make do with this quality yeah? i'm still very thankful) updated with official vid of the perf.

Ziu's serious face while doing that finger heart...lmao. this kid never fail to amuse me. Cobbie got quite a lot of closeups(i think i noticed this for yesterday's perf too lmao)...i've no complaints if the cameramen fell for him or sth...he is really good looking...it's hard to imagine he was the maknae...n now one of the maknaes after new members joined. he looked like he could be one of the hyungs. if there's a poll or sth for top visuals in current boygroups...i won't mind to nominate him. but...can we talk about how Ayno-Lou rap parts were cut? i mean...THE main part...Lou's part is my fav so this made me really sad T^T...well, i found the part a lil uhhh.... at first but then i grew to anticipate it n before i know i love it...their outfits today look like some resort's staffs though...i actually like it...it's cute...

and if there's one thing i realllllyyyyy love about VAV's style/stylist....is how....they actually wear socks...how cool is that!!!

it always annoys me seeing this no-socks fashion...it made the look incomplete n sloppy...idk...

i keep wondering why they look so smart n good and then i figured it out...they're wearing socks. that's why. xD

i mean even here...

you can see they're wearing socks.../crying/ lmao. (i'm still confused why it seem one part in their choreo has cobbie in the middle during st van's part n st van in the middle during cobbie's part...)

wear your socks guys, it makes you handsome...T^T...lol.

 

it's really so nice stanning an actually active group...

most of the groups i stan are either no longer active for years or just...no status...not promoting at all either...

it's been awhile since i'm actually stanning a current and active group..

this feels so good...so...overwhelming...lol.

 

ok gotta sleep pfft.

 

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3. but before that...about Pureboy...

it seem the company really throwing them out to nowhere...and hijacked their youtube channel for totally unrelated things...like fgjk njkhgkh bghjhk at least freaking change your channel's name you jhbfsdhg dhgubhgi bjgklbjh they already confirmed to a fan that their channel had nothing to do with pureboy and is now for their whatever sdjgbjh gbjhbjj bgnhj njhio like it's sooooo hard to make new channel for that....they didn't even fking care to clarify what really happen to pureboy...just like that ...i'm just dhgbretuhrbtuirhiuojhio bityutiyutyyiou

yeah ok bye.

but if you think that's gonna stop me from spreading the pureboy love...you got it wrong...idk what the heck is gonna happen to the remaining members...or if the quiet ones without sns are even still alive or whatevertheheck,....

but i'm gonna keep showing my love n support with my own way...

i'm seriously pissed off at the jerky company...

but since they responded like this (slide to the second picture) saying not to contact/msg them to watch pureboy...i'm gonna just reupload all freaking pureboy vids i already saved(luckily i already have over 80 in storage)...heh...while thinking of any next chaos to cause...:p

i love being immature....

i'll be posting pureboy vids whenever i have time...feel free to check them out at my channel.

see ya...

gnite~