this is not good.

my reckless thoughtless side is bubbling up...(wait...do i even have any other side? lmao)

lately i just start new fics like bosswhatever...

...when i'm determined enough to at least complete bug and guess me,baby.or so i thought. i even revisited some of my older fics to look for which one i could continue from where i left.

the last chapter update posted was during eid's eve...and even though i seem so very active...i haven't done any writing for fic updates...eversince then...lol.

but...

i've started/conceptualized...not 1 not 2 but 4 fics...that i'm really trying to hold back n rationalize n debate with myself whether their existence are deserving or whether they should be murdered/aborted prematurely...lol.

since probly not all the fics are gonna make the cut...

i'm gonna just commemorate their unofficial existence here...cuz who knows if they're gonna make it alive out of the draft world...

 

 

 

1. Confessions of A Ghost Trainee

- no surprise, produce 101 inspired. these were meant to be random drabbles...the main character(s) would be nameless..inspired by this. but i just feel i've written too many underdog stories of produce 101...so i'm unsure...

 

2. Frost Castle (tentative title)

- inspired by...April Story MV...xD...this would be chaptered. which make me hesitant to publish it...because commitment...

 

3. The Next Shooting Star (tentative title)

- oneshot. written for a (ex)Pureboy member birthday. unfortunately i couldn't finish it on time...i still remember when i managed to write a oneshot for ZE:A hyungsik's bday in such short time...even though he's like one of my least favs...actually back to this pureboy oneshot...i might just make it happen...even though it won't have reader...since it's not even a member who's in fancy show like produce 101...but it's a small pensive/reflective story...the kind that i like...so...who knows...though the missed timing will be awkward but...oh well...still thinking...

 

4. Tonight I'm Yours (tentative title)

- contrary to what you might think from the title...the idea for this fic is gonna be creep+fluff/comedy-ish(though i dare not call it comedy cuz what if nobody find what i write funny? i'm no good with funny stuffs...) centered around a kidnapping incident n psycho fan(but nothing to do with fall in love with kidnapper like seriously kids?)...haha...and if you hadn't guessed...this was totally inspired by VAV's song...(not really the mv, just the song)

yep...this...

...and that title was a line taken from the song...though i'm not sure if i do start it...whether to use that title lol...n VAV only have like 2-3 fics here? ...that fact made me really tempted to write this...but...i don't think i can make it oneshot...and i have extremely bad history with struggling to complete chaptered fics...so...i'm really on the fence...

 

that's about it for now...though who knows...i get new ideas every other day...i'm still unsure if any of these four will end up really published...

 

 

while we're on this topic,..i'd like to reveal some of my ancient fics that never ended up published though they're already in draft mode here...but i manage to resist before publishing...just didn't have the heart to delete yet...but they will also never be published...lol.

these were fics/fic ideas that were never published/seen...those that i published as forewards but never updated weren't included here...xD

and for the record...there were hundreds more ideas that were conceptualized in my head but never ended up in draft mode in aff so i don't include them either...

 

 

Sincerity (2013)

starring: a ZE:A member, a Nine Muses member, a Rainbow member. set in time of war. about different people's different take on 'sincerity'....can you just imagine...me, doing a war time fic? ugh...i can't either...lmao. no, i'm too lazy for something too elaborate like some specific setting...

 

Teddy Bear; It's You (2014)

starring: SS501 members. the title already suggest it all. pure fluff. well, i guess i'm never a good match with things that are too fluffy...;p idek how i came up with this...lmao.

 

That Person I Hate to Love to Hate (2014)

starring: SS501 members. oh...i think the title tells it all. lol.

 

 


 

Can we continue talk about VAV some more? i've been watching their stuffs other than perfs to have a feel of their personalities- their interviews, games, talks n so on......and surprisingly...despite coming off awkward at times...they're quite hilarious...and i just found that three of the members were actually new members replacing members who left earlier. ooh...but reading what people have to say about them/their release kinda annoyed me...like...why are people always setting skyhigh standard to be pleased when it's nugu/unknown/unpopular groups...but drop their standard to freaking low when it's those overrated opparunnirs that they can release any generic crap n people would rave like it's the masterpiece of the century...seriously freaking annoying. though i should've been so used to this ty status based double standard already...like review in akp saying it's lacking oomph/energy...what more energy do you want? and why ppl no complaint abt overused trendy music style when it's those big names but only remember bout it when it comes to the small fishes...n blablabla this n that x1000000. how come i dont ever see complaint when tryhard badass swaggy hephap are overproduced in kpop? bcuz that's the passing standard for boygroup? seriously...you...cowards who only can nitpick when it comes to groups with fandoms you're not afraid of...are just...lame. ok bye.

and if this is not 'energetic'...idk what is...

Ziu alone will be enough to drain your energy to just watch his antics with his overenergeticness lmao. even St.Van is dying of it(and dare i say, infected?..while here i'm dying watching his reactions to Ziu...hahaha...)...haa. to an extent i'd say Ayno is also very energetic here(not in the same loud way but yeah), though i don't think anyone can beat Ziu...lol. (suddenly i'm reminded of BP Rania...they have a member named Zi.U and i haven't heard of anything new from them...hope the girl won't disappear next bcuz she's supposed to be my fav member now there's no Riko T^T)

can you just believe i learned the names to faces in the group in just a day(less)...and with a group of seven members? who now all have same coloured hair? and without going to any profile page at that (though now i might check out their profile since i only know their stagenames n when they did fanchant using real names...i got kinda lost...lol). someone give me an award here. this is no easy feat for an ancient kpop fan who's grown tired and unimpressed by most things over the years, and who most time see members of a group all the same-yeap, even your oh so popular opparunnir group. tsktsktsk. where's my award guyz? i succeeded to learn who's who in such short time...lmao. is this something to be proud of? really? xD wait...now that i'm checking out their profile...i'm surprised Jacob is the Chinese member...if there's any Chinese member in the group...i wouldn't thought it's him...he looks just like a Korean instead of 'that foreign member'...idk maybe i just haven't seen enough of them, no offense intended to foreign members, they just usually have a different vibe/feel/look to them that makes them noticeable as the non korean member...maybe the level of comfort also add to it...idk but this guy looks comfy and at ease like he's at home so i didn't see it coming.......i've already mentioned four members...but that doesn't mean any of them are my favs...would it be surprising if i say my favs so far are the members not mentioned? xD...but...it's too early to have favs...and i'd rather have no favs...scrape this discussion of fav members off...so fangirly...yeesh...

So apparently i've gotten into VAV phase now whooo...i love how i keep jumping from this group/singer to that group/singer now to get obsessed about (i mean, the poem 'phase' that i wrote is really about my own everchanging phases lmao)...seriously guys...for me, this is better than being stuck oh so loyal on just one group/company and having your horizon limited...and your heartbreak goes deeper when something bad happens...good things don't last...don't be too loyal(though who am i kidding...over ten years, i still consider myself pretty darn loyal to Battle even if i don't write fics of them or gush over them every other day...i still get hyper when i see any updates from the members). well, i used to be that...but i'm evolving...for the better or worse, i can never tell even if deep down i know lol...though while my produce 101 phase might be leaving slowly...i'm still pretty much in Pureboy phase...but it's nice to have an active group to stan and make me forget all the confusion, worries n heartache stanning a confusing and now undetected group like Pureboy T^T...for awhile...

 

well, to end this...random pointless post that should not have been done...

some things worthy of your time...maybe...idk...

i told you i'd watch their every perf right? xD

 

i'm still kinda sad Flower(You) was not promoted in music shows...why do i feel that song could've reached a certain level of success if they had promoted it? maybe not win anything but maybe...yknow...some kinda increase awareness of their existence or sth...

 

 

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