I need someone to talk to...
Even if no one reads this (which is what I think I'll happen), I'll take my time to talk about everything shortly.
Sorry for my grammar I'm not gonna check what I write and my first language is spanish not english, so...
I've been depressed since last year when I graduated from college.
I have a huge insomnia problem since 6 years ago and my family has done nothing to help me.
My cousin who's a psychologist tol my dad so many years ago that I really needed to go into therapy yet he never tried to do something about it.
My parents basically aren't together since I was born because my father cheated on my mother and got a new family raising a kid whom he knew wasn't his.
I was living with my mom until I was 8 because she told me she couldn't take care of me (But she could take care of my other 2 older brothers...) and made me move with my dad's parents.
I got to live with them until I was 12 and I can tell those 4 years where the happiest I've lived so far.
In the middle of my 12's my father made me move with him and I had to leave my friends behind, they were kindda my first friends in a while because I basically changed my school all the years.
My stepmother has hated me ever since I was a kid, she would harass me when my father's not around and say she didn't know what I was talking about when I told my father.
So when I fanally moved with my father (my first time living with him in my 12 years living) it was just a nightmare.
She would fake like if she was happy with me being there and acting like she cared when my father was around and treat me like when he wasn't.
So yeah to make things short every single years was a ing mess and when I had my college's graduation my stepmother made a huge issue to me just not to invite my mother to the graduation which only made my relationship with my mother worst than it already was.
My mother hates me ever since I accepted to live with my father and didn't try to return with her so yeah...
Once again I was so done with everything and nobody was helping me with it.
I'm not studying what I want at the uni and I'm being forced to just keep studying without complaining.
Early this year my father got diagnosticated with a heart disease and we're just not fine.
I feel so done, so empty I swear every single day it just gets harder to think about possitive things that could happen.
The country's situation isn't even helping, everything's coming down at this point.
30 minutes ago my "friends" made me embarrass my ex answering him why I don't want to be with him and made him feel really ashamed and mad.
I didn't want that to happen, I didn't want to hurt him.
This is just a really short version of "everything" but there's just crap going on my life.
I'll end up by telling you that I almost die last most due the protest's and that I had to run away from bombs, I saw a kidnapping last week and almost got to jail for defending my rights.
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