why...
opening song:
even though the song isn't exactly a fit to the topic....the title does. lol. and...you know i've done blind translations for awhile right? that started bcuz nobody would help translate songs i love...yet everyone was willing to waste their time translate songs that already have been translated by a hundred more sites...i will never understand people...honestly. anyway, i've requested translations for two songs at a site...but after getting no response for long...i decided to take things into my own hands...did a crazy lot of research from search engines of various language source...n this very song, was the first song i translated^^/...if you don't believe me, you can see it here. xD...A'ST1 will always be somewhere on top of my list for idolgroup with best vocals ever. i mean at least three of their six members were good enough to be MAIN vocalist...that's how good they're(i mean, they even have a not human singer so what do i expect?)...and even their late rapper could sing n not sounding like a rapper singing(well, they did have a weak vocalist, but he rarely had more than a line so...)...yesterday, i saw Jangmoon posted on his instagram...pic with Hanbyul...i'm always happy that they all still have good friendship despite all have went their own path for a long time already...n the fact that they're pretty much friends with Battle members which happened after fated circumstances...like i said...the things/people i love will always somehow ended up connected to each other in random ways....i still hope they'd get back together some days...hey even if they can never get the whole group back together...even jungjin/jangmoon/hanbyul will already make it a super vocal idolgroup...n if they could get tomo from japan...that'd be cool too xD...i doubt hyming would come back since he's busy with business in china...but...i wouldn't say no to see them back as almost-complete group...when i watch their perf...it still felt like ingyu is still around...T^T...
WARNING: i think i might be in some emo mood that cause all these heavy negative nitpicky topics...i feel better abt myself when my topics were just shallow and oppars...but what can i do...i'm in this mode...
Anyway....on to the topic....WHY
i will talk about why i need to avoid getting in anymore discussion or just people in general on this site(maybe elsewhere too, i wouldn't know...been inactive sns for awhile or how else i can be so active here? :p)....
i get upset whenever i see ppl trying to teach you what you should or should not feel...
like...dude....mind/feel control much? control your own damn mind n feelings...instead of coming at other peeps to tell them what they feel is wrong n blabla...
like 'you shouldn't be angry/sad/discouraged bcuz of blabla...'...'you should do it this way bcuz blabla'...'you should not write like this'...'you should do this for this reason, not that'...'you should this'...'you should not that'...
like the heck...who you to tell them why they should or should not feel something? or to do things in a way YOU see right. seriously...people here(n probly everywhere else too) can be so delusionally idealistic n forcing their ideals onto other peeps it's so fking suffocating.
like when i see people criticising or mocking/making fun of other fics that use poor grammar/terms they don't like/plots/characteristics they don't like...dude...if you can't tell them nicely in the face...how bout you shut up and write what you think is good enough instead of cowardly do hidden attacks like some lame cyber bully wannabe...just cuz they write things you don't like...bet some of these bully peeps are insecure to write their own shiets for fear of people like them coming n laughing off their craps...haha...
just bcuz you feel that you shouldn't feel a certain way about something...that doesn't mean you should impose on other people to feel the same way....who certified your way of thinking/feeling as 'the right one' anyway? :p
they can feel however damn way they want to feel. (since when does feelings have rules n knowhows?)
they can feel angry/sad/discouraged for the pettiest reason...
they can feel like writing for whatever that motivate them be it the most unrighteous shallow things...
they can feel like giving up if they genuinely don't have any will to keep going...and weren't given any legit reason to believe n keep going...
what makes any of you feel you have the right to force them to feel or not feel something...based on how you feel...should they be your clones? why...aren't you peeps so perfect?
i know...the intention of people here are nice...but for a community made of people who write n read...the way we express our 'care' can be really...bad...for the lack of better words...i'm not telling you how you should express them...but saying how people is wrong to feel how they feel n telling them how they should feel instead according to your ideals...
don't you feel that's so tacky n egotistical?
(and no, this is not personal attack to anyone in specific...i've just encountered the situation way too many times that i figured i'd just make a general post n compile everything i've seen that i could remember)
different people have different situations, different ideals...none higher than the other...you can never see two similars as same cuz they're just similar, not exactly the same n sometimes the small detail of difference is what makes the whole situation completely different...how can you model everything based on yourself?...(is that the effect of fanfic? yikes...)
i wouldn't say i'm handling things perfectly...i've done n said things i'm not proud about i'm sure...the only solution i can think of...is to avoid getting into anymore contact/discussion/argument out of what i've to say...no matter how i'm itching to...
even what i say....are just what i feel....they're not facts you need to follow...if you don't agree, you're free to feel however you want....i just find it wrong to 'control' what other people feel about something or tell them how they should feel...that just....gives me the creeps. i like to express myself here...but i'd never want people to take my words for facts unless you can rationalize them on your own...bcuz who am i anyway? a nobody loser trying to act smart (bcuz i can, since it's my blog)...lmao. there i said it out loud....hahaha...but really guys...there are a lot of peeps acting smart and insisting that their opinions/beliefs are facts here...i see them everyday...but it's up to YOU to use your brains to think...rather than blindly believing n eating up all the shiets you're served...just bcuz they say this n this is true...doesn't mean they're true. ;) (sadly, these peeps would have the most confidence n as an effect, many just worship n 'preach' whatever served to them...oh well...)
if someone says 'i feel really sad bcuz of *insert stupid thing*'....well...let them be sad...who the frak says you can only be sad for intelligent things...? their emotion is their right...
if i've done/said any of those self centered delusional idealistic things in the past(which i'm sure i would've done), pretty much a hypocrite myself...forgive me...i'm still growing n changing for the better or worse...this is how i feel in this moment....i could evolve into a completely different person the next time...and there's nothing wrong with that right? that's how living things are anyway...changing in one way or the other. (although in many ways it's so hard for me to move on n change even after so many years)
i know...me talking too much of scandalous natured things can cause ppl to pay more attention to find my flaws to bring me down...hey, real world's like that too, more vicious in fact lol...no biggie...i already admitted to all my hypocrisy n faults before you can find and attack me for it....;p
i should burn all my blogs seriously...aaaaaahhh...
one more thing...yes here i am about to teach/tell you what to do after paragraphs teaching you to not tell people what to feel...but hear me first...
can we...refrain from making fake promises/assurance in the name of making people feel better/be encouraging so called? five years here...i've seen it too many times....fake promises/encouragement happens all the frreaking time without any follow up action to keep up with their words...all in the name of being 'nice'...
seriously...might as well say nothing than give those false hopes with empty promises towards kids who for all you know could be holding onto your mindless words with all they have...waiting n waiting for promises to be kept, only to be left with broken heart n nothing.
please... less claiming you'll do something you won't and would just forget right after saying you would...
less sweet fake words/promises....more real actions...if anything...
let me give you an example to make it easier...
if some random user here make a post saying...
'I feel so sad and unloved. nobody care about me. why nobody love me?'
the likeliest response you'd see...
'don't be sad.' 'i love you'. 'i care about you.' 'you shouldn't feel that way'
by people who don't even know this user...n clearly don't even care to get to know the user....instead...you rarely see things like....
'how would i love you, i don't even know you. care to share about yourself?'...'why do you feel that way?'
people are so quick to say something committal to someone they don't even bother to get to know i'm like....???
if someone says 'i have no reader T^T'
you're likely to see 'i'll read your fic!!!'
but how many actually went and read and leave comments to prove it...and how many just say it to make the person feel better but never go to keep their words to read the writer's fic...?....this is the most common scene i've seen on this site...my heart breaks for everyone who received empty promises and hold onto them...everytime i see them...i wanted to go to the person and tell them not to have hopes...bcuz those encouragement they receive were mostly gonna end as just that....lies. but...i just couldn't...i'm not in the position anyway...i could just hope out of the lot...at least one would keep their words...so there'd be less people broken by people's 'nice'ness....
if it were me....getting no replies is better than getting lies.
do you get me?....
oh well...
(this is more or less like same topic with yesterday huh...lol...i'm not creative huhuhuh)
i feel evil now...like...i'm going to make people who read n influenced to be scared to post up things...with my negativity...but you see...you can choose to see me as the ridiculous annoying one...instead of a fact-bearer i certainly am not...i like to make people think...not listen/follow/obey me...lol.
closing song: to all who feel offended n ready with pitchforks now...allow me to say this....
^ eek..ok maybe not...i just love this song though this wasn't any of their title songs T^T...i didn't get to show support for a'st1 when they're still around...but i'm glad i was managed to support jungjin by buying the album that had this song(well, it's not exactly just a form of help/support...i've always loveeeedddd his voice anyway n i was pleasantly surprised by J-BRO's album too...they didn't go the typical direction i thought they would...then i remembered they're not releasing the album in korea n it all made sense lol). i used to be sad that he got so little parts(maybe not that little...but as a competent vocalist...he could've gotten more) in a'st1 songs...(well, he did get more parts in their ballads i noticed)...so when he debuted as the only singer in a duo...the satisfaction of not having to feel annoyed by him getting little parts...bcuz he's getting like all singing parts...lol.
but....
^ omg...the rapper sings. even though he's singing over a loud backtrack at some parts but still...he managed to sound so clear...and the song was lengthy yet he sang n rapped to all of it by himself...just wow...i never knew Jihwan can sing this good being a rapper...!!! their group was just him doing all raps n Jungjin doing all vocals...so when jungjin went to army...we got this. all these while...i only got interested in this group cuz of Jungjin...but...this gave me newfound appreciation for J-Hwan's abilities...although sadly i don't really like the song he released as j-bro when jungjin wasn't around....i hope they'd come back together soon...n release another album with good quality stuffs....i noticed all my fav singers who went to release music in Japan solely...end up coming out with better stuffs than what i got in kpop...i mean...just look at all park jungmin's releases(though in his case, even his stuffs released in Korea were already really good for me...but his Japan released stuffs were good in a way that don't sound mainstream or typical stuffs to expect from kpop...in fact, they actually sound like....music...yes kill me)
throwing another one cuz i can...n i miss j-bro...
omg!!! what have i done...i spent my weekends to write random negative sounding blogposts...instead of updating any fics...omg....lmao....i'm so dead....
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