For Muslims who are reading this during Ramadhan, do so at your own discretion because
There aren't a lot of cussing but you can still feel my rage in here

PART ONE

I don't watch P101 because I hate survival shows, in case nobody knows about this

Yeah it's because I hate survival shows. I didn't even finish MYDOL and I only watched the parts after the VIXX members were chosen. Goddamn Daewon's story was sad

I didn't watch No Mercy either because people keep telling me about the sad things Changkyun had gone through and stuff and no I don't want to share more pain

BUT PRODUCE 101 THOUGH.

My mom had been watching this season since the very first episode (not sure why she got interested though, she didn't bat an eye when I mentioned about the girl version which I also didn't watch lol) and she adored a lot of them

And when I mean a lot of them I meant the really popular ones like Daniel and Samuel and the NU'EST members lmao

But last night was like a fokkin tragedy to a lot of my friends

And me too, somehow

Because although I didn't watch the show I knew that 4/5 of the members of NU'EST were on the show (WHERE'S ARON THO) and I was ROOTING FOR THEM

AND ONLY ONE GOT IN

WHAT THE TAUFUPOK

WHERE IS MY DONGHO

WHERE IS MY JONGHYUN

AND WHY WASN'T SAMUEL IN THE LIST WOTWOTWOTWOTWOTWOTWOTWOTWOTWOTWOTWOT

Okay enough of the P101 rage because there are like 10 more blog posts on my feed dedicated to the tears of the fans of those three sad bois

But let's get into PART TWO

I JUST FOUND OUT THAT ALMOST THE ENTIRE CLASS KNOWS THAT I HAVE A CRUSH ON ONE OF THEM (aka the one who helped me crack FL Studio lmao)

IN FACT I THINK EVERYONE IN THE CLASS DOES EXCEPT FOR HIM WOTTOFOK

It started off with me being friendzoned, and then my deskmates found out, and then it somehow spread to the entire class (I ing hate this class so many in here kill me pls)

And JUST today, my close friend who is also a mutual 'close' friend of my crush (the inverted commas because she claims otherwise) told me that a classmate told him about 'someone in class having a crush on him' and

well

I DON'T WANT THINGS TO GET AWKWARD

My classmates have been really obnoxious about the two of us recently especially because our class teacher wants a new seating plan and look at the amount of effort they put in to make the two of us new deskmates

Like wow friends

Thank you so much

I get to sit with him

You can feel the joy

You can feel my joy

In the end I didn't because I was really pissed about them (the more people mention about something the more agitated you get that's why I'm still salty about 'and also VIXX')

And also for the convenience and the welfare of one of her beloved and obedient student my teacher made another plan with a new arrangemetn of furniture so I'm now sitting with girls instead of him

Well I wasn't sitting with him in the first place I sat with another guy whom I was semi-close with but yeah

you can feel

the joy

so joyous