This has been bugging me for months, I need to get it out.
I feel like I'm wasting my time writing ..
Sorry I have to start with that note, but I do, I really do.
I'm a bit tired of blaming my lack of writing due to writer's block, I've realized that's not the main problem, I have ideas constantly swirling through my mind, it's the lack of support that has demotivated me greatly.
I sincerely apologize to my readers, but mostly the silent ones, if any of you reads this; I'm sorry.
I apologize from the bottom of my heart if I sound arrogant or greedy, but as a writer I need to get this out cause to be very honest it's hurting me quite a lot.
I've learned that writing is my passion and escape from reality, my own little world that I love sharing with others. However, I went from receiving daily feedback on certain stories, to complete silence ..
I remember I once read "No comments, no story updates" and I remember thinking how incredibly arrogant that sounded, but now I get it. I sadly get it ..
By saying what I feel at the moment, I feel as if I was punishing my readers simply for not commenting and it makes me feel kinda ty, but at the same time it's so disappointing working so hard on one single chapter thinking excitedly: "Hey, this is a pretty good chapter, I bet they'll love this" and not receiving anything even after weeks of checking in daily.
Writing is extremely tiring and exhausting, editing every cover and chapter cover myself is too and re-reading to spell check is just as exhausting, but I do it with love and hope.
But I'm also tired of getting my hopes up each time I make a poll asking what stories you'd like me to make and getting a good amount of votes, then when I write it, I get nothing .. guys, it's truly disappointing.
Now this isn't a rant so you'd feel sorry for me or mock me, this is what I feel as a writer. It's frustrating, disappointing and saddening as well, and I feel like I'm just wasting my time.
Please, if you enjoy a certain story, tell the writer; you guys have no idea how amazing it feels to receive a simple compliment. It's not about writing big paragraphs, it's about letting the writer know you're enjoying it and they're doing great. I do not blame the silent readers and their shyness, I don't, you're not obligated at all, but please have in mind that you guys; our readers, are the ones that keeps us going, for you!
Again, I'm sorry if I come off as greedy, but I had to say it because it's been bugging me. I'm sorry if I lose readers for this but I'm sure fellow writers could relate and I hope some readers can understand. Some of us write for you; I write for you guys because I love it and I know how some of my stories have helped some of you, but I can't deny that it hurts seeing nothing.
By writing this I don't expect a swarm of comments or feedback to be honest, I just want people to know that some of us could use support, it's rewarding and makes me feel like I accomplished something.
But for now, I'll write when I can and finish at least one story which might be Pandemonium. I doubt I'll ever stop writing, but please understand I feel little to no support from people and like I said, writing and editing is very tiring, I don't want to feel like I'm wasting my time and overworking myself anymore.
I'm sorry, I hope there's some type of understanding. Thank you for reading!
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