I started by searching their profiles. I was not thinking or planning of stanning them or what, I was just curious. 

 

    I'm still new to kpop word that time, stanning only one group for a half year on 2012. On 2013, that was the year I was getting to know kpop more and getting to know more groups -- Beast, BAP,Teentop, Mblaq, and SHINee. I also stumbled upon EXO's popularity of the same year, I swear I was too fallen head over heels for them, the year BTS debuted too, I didn't know them at all. But then I saw a video on Youtube, claiming Baekhyun and Daehyun have a love child (As a Baby and Exo-L, this is smth worth-looking for right?) That was the time I came to know V of BTS. The similarities, it was a head
turner, and they are also called the 'Hyun Family' for having 'Hyun' on their names, it was very fascinating. So I started searching this guy named 'V'. I've already knew BTS that time because one time on 2013 (While I was still a die-hard Exo-L), I was recommending BTS to my friend that maybe she'll like them, not even knowing or had watched their music video, I just recommended them when the truth was I only once took a look on their profiles so I could brag their names on my friend. I didn't know their name as Bangtan Sonyeondan, I knew them by the name 'Bangtan Boys', sounded very silly for me. I can still remember how much I judged their debut photo teasers. Too hiphoppy (?) and too swaggy for me, with gold chains and what, it looked like they were trying hard to look cool (I'm so sorry T^T). 

 

 

 

    Namjoon wearing glasses with his weird curly hair. Hobi with a spiky mask on his chin. Suga with a large goggles and beanie on his head, I thought he also looked like a girl-boy. Taetae with his thick eye liner, I thought he was a rapper. The members that took my attention were Kookie and Jin, they looked alike. And Jimin was the guy I was least interested in, someone who can sing well. I bragged on Jin so much to my friend because why not? He's handsome and looked like an anime character to me. But yes, I wasn't really interested on them. Thinking of this right now, I feel embarrassed of myself as well as a shame to the fandom. So 2013 passed by as I made myself a fool for not getting to know them better, I judged them by their looks. The only excuse I can give is because I wasn't still not used to that type of concept but this excuse is not even acceptable. 

 

    2014 was the time they became a hot stuff, I was in a group for kpop groups in general, giving informations for new groups, BTS was included, of course the cause of this was the power of Jin's visuals. So for the second time, I gave them a try but was laying low, straight to YT, the first music video I watched was 'Boy In Luv', my heart was shookt! All those times, why am I an idiot?! I ing regretted for losing the chance on knowing them earlier, until now I'm still pissed with myself for being such an idiot that time. So that's when I started watching other of their music videos -- No More
Dream, We Are Bulletproof Pt.2, N.O, and Just One Day as well as their Rookie King. I came to decide that yes, I'll be an ARMY starting that day. Until now, I can't really remember the exact month when I started stanning them but what I'm sure is there wasn't any comeback and I got to watch BTS' American Hustle Life when there were still only two episodes released then they made a comeback with 'Dark and Wild Album' where I got to watch Danger (The 1st MV I watched as an ARMY). The MV that made me think 'This group will surely slay in the future', I'm not saying this just because I am biased or that I
just love them so much rn but it's really from a pure and innocent opinion of mine. I even admitted and wished for them to win the 'Best Dance Performance Award', although I was really into EXO (known for having knife-like choreographies), I did wish for them to win that title because why not? They deserve that recognition. They are from a small company but seeing their production, choreographies and the song itself is worthy of that title. But unfortunately they were still unknown, EXO was too popular back then.

 

    If I think about it, why did it took them 2 years after debut to get their 1st win when in reality they are already great from the start? The reason is, the recogniton from the Knetz themselves. Being on a small company that wasn't really well-known like I said earlier, a concept that most people won't like, still lacking of visuals (I'm so sorry T^T Most people think BTS members are ugly and I'm really angry! I do judge people on their looks sometimes as 1st Impressions, from earlier that was my real 1st impressions on BTS, too swaggy and gold chains I don't really like but my kpop life, I always start on
how good their music is. I don't usually based on how I stan a group on their visuals and beautiful backgrounds or big companies. That's the reason that most groups I stanned, I left the fandom. I don't know but if I don't feel their music anymore, I feel tired of them. I'm not the person who still stays in the fandom to say I'm a loyal fan when the truth is, it's not the same feeling I have as I came to like them. I know lots of people will hate me because of my thinking or that I shouldn't have ever become a Kpop fan then.. but hey! Why stay if you don't feel anything anymore? As if you're making a fool of
yourself by staying and believing you're just being loyal. Also, I don't leave a fandom just because I dislike the other fans' attitudes or what, what I believed is stay because you love their music but because I don't feel their music already, I don't fully cut of my ties as a fan of that group, I still support the group as much as I can).

    That's also the reason why me being an ARMY became stronger, because BTS and BigHit don't stop making surprises, improvements and changes. Every comeback, they have something to show. They always come up with beautiful but sometimes creepy concepts. That's when they came up with their Trilogy, a two-part Project Series 'Hwayang-yeonhwa', the comeback I put all my attention in, the
time where theories right and left were made. That took my inner writer feels as well as my fangirl soul. I'm a fan of mysteries that makes me think and ask why. There were lots of metaphors, symbolism, and hidden meanings on this trilogy. I can say this became their breakthrough to their popularity. Unique and genius, not with the common girl-boy love relationship but centering on 'Youth' which is unusual for a group right? But because of this, I learned more about the importance of youth, my life and theirs. Not only the group is good but also their company, BigHit (Which I curse a lot for dropping bombs out
of the blue without any notice), their stylists, choreographers, directors, and the one who came up with the idea. I am really grateful for the people who made this, not only did they make a music but as well as the beauty of youth itself, the story connection to one another, and for making my mind hurts all throughout the trilogy (didn't end when they released 'Wings Album'). I can still feel the excitement in my heart whenever I watch their MVs. Because of this, my ARMY heart became stronger. I was never this excited to any groups including my ultimate biased group, Bigbang, until BTS happened to me (I feel this on Seventeen too TTuTT).

    There musicality always improve and it's never tiring. For being humble since debut to even now. I didn't see them getting boastful of what they are achieving rn or what they had reached, they continue on how we get to know them. The group I really feel the brotherhood from each other, not just as a group member but accepted each one of them like a family. Their team work that seems to be obvious anyway. They don't leave any members not to get recognize. As if everything they do, they do it fair and square, they know what are their strengths and weaknesses.

    I feel proud for knowing them. It's been 3 years since I became an ARMY and never did I become bored for being one. Their songs, their undying love for ARMYs, their humbleness.. I feel lucky to be included in this fandom, or maybe a family instead.

 

    For all those 4 years as BTS, I thank you for existing. ARMYs exist because of BTS and BTS exists because of ARMYs. 

    Never thought of them becoming this SO BIG! coming from a small entertainment, indeed BIG HIT!~ To bring more good music, good performances and give us a never-ending love, to give us more smiles and tears. I will always support BTS till now and forever~ Love love~ <3 <3 <3 I love you guys!~ Let's fly together!!~ <3

4 years of good music, choreography, concepts
4 years of happiness
4 years of different sides of BTS 

 

HAPPY 4TH YEAR ANNIVERSARY BANGTAN SONYEONDAN!!~ <3 

 

(I know it's long but this is my way of celebrating their 4th year in the industry as well as my 3rd year of being an ARMY.. Sorry for the long post >.>)