Dawn.

The world thats so cruel. 
Shut my mouth easily. 
I trying to speak up but no one ever listen. 
I scream for help but no one ever listen. 
I spread out my hands waiting for someone to grab it but everyone refuse.
That ignorance. That silent. That loneliness.
Its too loud for me. Its hurt my ears. 
Im waiting for someone to sit next to me.
When i was falling apart. 
When i was crying in the middle of night. 
When my mind being a mess.
When i cant calm myself down.
When i suddenly crying out of nothing.
When i faking a smile for you.
When i cant move from bed.
When i thought about suicide.
When i stay awake until morning.
And im the one who see the sunrise. 
Listening to the same song. Repeat. Again & again 
Where did i go wrong?
Why did i lost everyone?
In a crowded place but why i feels so lonely? 
Why is everyone leaving?
Where did i go wrong?
What have i done?

 

 

* Its feels ache inside while listening to RM & V new song - 4 O'clock. This song, somehow, it reminds me of those days. Those days where i cant sleep, stay awake all days and nights, feeling confuse, feeling betrayed, sadness all over the place. Those days where i used to sit near my room window and crying. This song reminds me of those days. And i wrote this at one of those days when the dawn almost leaving and the sun almost rise. The truth is everything is fine right now. Everything is great and good right now. And i hope everything will always be like this. I dont want to go back to those days again. Seriously, its heavy, tiring and crazy. I dont want to back to those crazy days again. Ever.* 

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sleepingprince
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I'm relieved that you are fine now :) continue to stay strong and think positive ^^