I know Its wrong to pick a figth with someone over small things but sometimes you have to, to defend yourself when no ones going to be there for so...

For some people who sees only your physical & only want your outside beauty. Let me share something about my boring life story so lets start then? okay..

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Living in peaceful family was great. How I love them more than myself.

I live without no hatred, no questions in how life goes..

Like a kid, I rather live that way.

Contented of what I have.

A go with the flow I was...

Added, a deep thinker (IDK, but even coated words I still can read & understand what's within or deep down etcetera) so yeah... I think... yeah..

To become a chef is my dream.

It may kinda weird for you but I smile as well to every strangers I pass by. Its kinda weird for me also why Im doing that all I know is even they have bad days with that it can help brighten their day at least.

I love to work with passion.

Much patience as dog like waiting for his food to serve (HAHA)

I highly respect not only to elders but also to children.

They say Im unpredictable person.

Theres an anime that I really love since I was a kid titled "FRUITS BASKET". When I feel down & lost in my track, I rewatch that because the personality of that girl is so close to mine. We have much similarities that is why it's one of my fave anime. Until now its kinda my remedy. I feel refresh after, it may be just a simple cute short romcom story to other but for me its different, I feel like theres more on it. 

Everything sounds like a happy living right...

BUT....

Y'all dont know that I live with bully people around me. Yes you can call that as a bully victim. I mean... like... people likes to bully you whenever they want.. esp.. in school.. yeah.. ^^. When I was in grade school, whenever it's my turn to demonstrate P.Es activity my classmates were laughing. The worst part there was even the one I called Bestfriend would join them. Even the person I had crush on.

It was not my fault thou actually I'm so fat at that time. "PIG" that's what they call me mostly.. Imagine I weigh 45 kls at the age of 10 already.. HAHAHA. My parents were so worried about me like what if I reach 18 yrs I become as big as you imagine. Okay.. My neighbors as well bullying me for being so fat. Throwing an hurtful words like "Look, shes coming be careful, lets hold hands there might be an earthquake when she pass by" how rude -__-. I want to cry sometimes but tears has nothing to do with it so I endured those instead as much as I can.

6 yrs I learned how to manage those bully people.

6 yrs I'm getting used to it calling me diff nicknames like pig, fatty girl, etc. Imagine that I always heard those word repeatedly very day.

Somehow I wish in just a blink of an eye I become as y as hollywood stars and K - stars. I supposed maybe because I'm fat no one would like to be friends with me but I understand.

But while I'm looking to myself in the mirror something whisper behind me like "Why don't you try, it may take time & days to change but why not, you wouldnt know until you see the result". So I suddenly feel motivated and start diet at the age of 11 by myself. God, it's hard to cut my fave fòods such chocolates, junk foods & sweet cookies & gonna say bye foods im gnna miss you~.

1 year passed.....

I still feel like a big-fat pig, its been so long since I last saw myself in a mirror, afraid if I look at it again I become fatter than I was before but one day while were having our family reunion one of my aunt'ies notice me & was shock the moment she saw me.. I suddenly feel conscious to myself again but when she speak "OMG, wait.... what.. how did you.. how did you... lose weight?, omg tell me" Im surprised I didnt expect.. so I look in the mirror and oh did I really...? ahaha 

The bullies did stop when Im in secondary school so i think i really did change. I finally shut their mouth up. I win. ^^..Im like "hey im back the pig you hate" 

for 7 years of bullying I finally back in peace. 

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I share my story  because I still see some people would like to bully inoccent people. Don't be afraid to kick their asses, I tell you, fight. you deserve the world youre living. I once give my classmate a big punch for bullying me for over-doing it haha that ended up calling our parents but I don't regret it because they started it & it was too much. Remember if you can't fight them find a way to shut their asses up. And to those people who're feel miserable to their life living remember even a person with a happy life have also experiencing worst than yours, than what you feel so cheer up chingus ^^ I know you can pass it. Everything is going to be fine and don't ever hate yourself for being so weak please so lack of everything. Love yourself as much as your family & friends loves you. okay. Embrace people who sees your inside not only your outside.

ps: // whispers I wish I could help those people who're having a health problem. -_-.

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