I wonder if you have experience of that time? Where you've been called ugly. For me, yes. Since kid. I am the ugly kid. I still remember this one person told me that i am ugly when im attend his uncle's wedding. He is family of mine somehow. Maybe thats why its broke my heart so much. He is my cousin. He called me a cow and told me that no one will ever want to be friend with me. Coz i am ugly. He is younger than me and i wonder how much has he eat until he can speak like that to me? No kidding guys. This is true story of mine. But back then instead of being mad, i just stay silent. Crying inside. And start from that time, i have doubt myself. I hate that why im not beautiful like others. I hate that why i cant be pretty like others. I hate that why i cant dress in style like others. I hate that i cant keep it up with the trend/fashions. I hate that i am broke inside. And that things getting bigger and heavy from time to time. Its grew along with me. And it had broke my self esteem everyday. Until one time, i hate my own reflections. I hate my face. I hate my smile, my eyes, my mouth. Everything on my face! I dont want to meet up with peoples coz i will doubt myself in silent. I dont want to meet with peoples coz i dont like the way they look at me. I dont want to meet with peoples coz i hate to compare myself with them. I know its me. But comparing myself had become an habits of mine coz i am desperately want to be like others. I have trying to be like others. You know, buying those trendy clothes and what hot in the fashion store. But when i put that clothes on me, i wonder whats went wrong? Ive feel like something is missing. Incomplete. Uncomfortable. I dont like this kind of clothes. This is not me. This is not me! And i realize that time, i should stop all of this. I should not let anyone control my mind. Just because i have been told that i am ugly, doesnt mean that i am ugly. Yes maybe its true that i am ugly. I dont deny it. But, what is definiton of beautiful? I ask you. What is definition of pretty? Who decide what is pretty and what is beautiful? Who decide either i am pretty or beautiful? If its true i am ugly, then why must you be bother by it? Im the one who is ugly not you. So, shut the off! I know it! Now, as i grow up into adult, i had made up my mind. I decide that i will buy those trendy clothes but only with my own money. I realize that even tho you told me that i am ugly or my face is like a cow , or im lame coz not keep up with the trend or fashion but at least i am not a spine breaker. I have taste the sweet and bitter in working. Not get enough sleep. Pressure here and there. Same routine everyday. Bored and tired with everything. Torture your body inside out. Just only to get paid in the end of the month. And that money, for me, mostly goes to my family. My money is my family's money. Sometimes i dont get to buy anything for myself. Im completely focusing to my family. But it doesnt bother me. Coz i realize that this is more important. So, can you imagine how broke your parents are? Teens, you buy those expensive clothes with their money that they worked hard to get at the end of the month. You go to those expensive and hipster cafe just to get good shot so that you can upload it on your instagram, with your parents salary. Again, can you imagine how broke your parents are? I will not call you anything, its you who decide to be who you are. Of coz, i still get jealous when others saying someone i know is pretty but never told me that i am pretty, but for what? So, i reset everything. Rearrange my own thoughts back and live my life. I still had my old bad habits but i am trying my all to fight it. Everyday i motivate myself. Everyday i learn to love myself. To be true with myself. To accept myself. It doesnt matter if im not use branded clothes. Coz there is peoples in other side of the world who did not even get to wear clothes. It doesnt matter if im not beautiful or pretty. Coz everything God made is beautiful and pretty. We not the one who suitable to judge or decide. Coz you and me are the same. We came from Him and to Him we will return. And when you call or point someone as ugly, please be realize that you are more uglier coz you have that kind of attitude. Peace!