kind of...... really shook right now?

so like.... my family might be moving to seattle? 

to give you some context, i'm from texas- i was born here, and have lived in the same house for my ENTIRE life. my family is a part of this friend circle in my town that we've also known for my entire life (18 years). i've went to school with the same people for p much my whole life. on top of that, i currently attend a state university of Texas, and visit home at least once a month. all of my friends are from cities across texas, too. 

i've literally experienced my utter lows and highs and gone through so much in my town....... when i think about leaving my room back home, i literally want to cry- i can recall memories of my room getting painted at age 11, crying in my room at age 13, or writing "the classified accounts" at 16, or packing for college at 17. 

it's so weird because like..... again, i'm in college now. i'll have my own apartment next year, and in like 3 years i'm going to be completely moved out of my parents' house because i'll be getting a job obviously.....

but like..... i just always thought they'd always be in that house. like, there when i ever needed to come home. i knew of course they'd eventually move, but.... not this soon.

and my sister's going to be in seattle too? i'm literally going to be 2,000+ miles from her? what the actual ? 

i don't know why but it just feels like i'm growing up? like, moving is one thing. if i was in high school and i was moving with my family, that would be something else. 

but..... i'm staying in texas while they're moving to ing washington state

it's so weird because i love seattle so much but also.... no matter how much i rip on texas.... i ing love this stupid, problematic state. i literally cannot even believe i'm saying this lol i've roasted texas my whole life but i ing love this place........... what the ........

my ing dumb sister is probably reading this right now because her headass has an AFF account too if ur reading this then you ho!!! but forreal if you wanna move move im cool with it. dont show this to amma and appa lmao 

probably going to private this in a little bit because i have revealed Too Much Information about myself already!!!!!!!!! welp!!!!! just needed to vent and talk to someone lmao because i'm telling my family i dont care either way but to be honest i don't know if i care or not???? lmao wtf i am literally sitting in my bedroom in this dumb farmhouse in ing MAINE aboutta start cryin?????? what hte ! 

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oohkatsoo #1
everyone on aff is growing up )): i dont even read fanfics on this site anymore but i still check it occasionally to see what's new sigh
V0UZMEVOYEZ #2
LMAO RUBI RIP EVERYONE IS RLY GROWING UP
i feel like ive watched u...grow up... legit tho sjxjsnxjsnjsna i hate
an entire generation of aff users r leaving like what the but also good yes we gotta move on \_(ツ)_/
listen im really troy bolting rn, getting emo about life but life moves on eventually u gon forget abt this account, u gon meat the man of ur dreams
u gon have children then ur children r going to like kpop and bam the cycle repeats
Indrani #3
This year i gav my matriculation exam of 10th grade.. and now i hav to take admission in other higher secondary school and live in boarding..since we don't hav any gud school in our town.. i hav to mov to other city... probably a distant one.
I hav spent 12 years of school life in here.
All my friends r scattered since we all hav differnt plans.... im afraid i will be all alone... im kinda scared.. it will be my first time leaving my family and living alone.*sigh* im frm India thou... nice to meet u authornim...
deathbyanime #4
I know what you mean, two years ago my parents decided to move from Germany to England when I was 14, I had to learn a new language and a new culture, my brother stayed in Germany to finish his degree. If you ever want to talk message me. Sorry for my bad English
aemilius #5
<3333333333333333333333 idk what to say but ily a lot and you got my number if u ever wanna talk <3333
xiu_mine #6
I get what you feel, though it's a little less intense on my part because we've been moving around in various phases and places my whole life. Like you, I was also in college, away from the place my family was living at that moment when they decided to move to the city which was oceans apart from where my sister and I are studying from so we couldn't go with them and it's effin heartbreaking cos it won't be easy to come home to your family whenever you feel like it because distance. We only knew about the news when my parents visited us before they go and after they left my sister and I were crying loads of tears and the rain wouldn't stop so we cried a lot more cos even the weather is crying for us. Damn I wasn't even given the chance to visit that home for one last time.

But anyway i just took it as chance to grow and embrace adulthood and to understand that the only constant thing in life is change. You can bring your memories with you wherever you go and just make sure that you don't lose communication. Well one good thing about distance is that when you make the effort the close the distance, it's surely memorable. Imagine my family's surprise and happiness when my sister and I suddenly showed up at the new home for Christmas when they thought we will spend it apart. That's heck of a surprise I never thought we can pull off, all thanks to my father, our accomplice.

Okay sorry for rambling on, i just can't help but remember the past. You have great people and warm memories to remember Texas by, just don't lose them. Even if you find another home, Texas will always be important to you and know your past can never be erased. It'll be nice to keep in mind that there's a special place there you've come to call home who knows everything about you.
beaverbear123 #7
I feel exactly the same way. My parents decided that as a family we would move to a totally different neighborhood in 2 months. I've basically had so much good memories in my neighborhood, the nearby park where I would go to all the time and the friends that lived there. I complained before that I wanted my own room (Cuz I share with my sister) but now that we're actually moving into a bigger space and diff. neighborhood scares me now. I've started becoming more sentimental about things just to grasp at what I won't have anymore. But I'm sure a lot of us feel this way when it comes to moving. I moved when I was child and I hated it so much because then I had to go to a new school and make new friends again, not to mention leaving my childhood friends behind. But ever since that move, I'm come to meet a handful of life long friends. And I met my childhood friends later on in life in highschool. I'm sure your family possibly moving away from Texas is very saddening and anyone would too. I'm sure this will be brief and soon it'll come to be better for example circumstances will benefit you.
I hope this made you feel better, giving encouragement and positivity. Best of luck to you chingu!
WildBunny #8
Take this and view it in a positive way. I can relate to you because i have lived in this house for my whole life (the same amount of time as you) and we might be moving to a different house soon (but not to a different state). But in your case take this as another step of the growing up. You already moved out of your house and are attending university. That's the first step most college students take into adulthood. Now this new phase of life is another step for adulthood. I'm not going to lie that it's going to be easy. It's going to take a while to adapt but you'll pull through and you'll still be able to talk to your parents and Skype with them. And once the semesters are over you'll be able to visit them! Hang in there! I know this is a scary phase put we'll all go through it eventually so don't overthink it :)
bluelixir #9
You're actually in the same boat as me but it's a little different because I chose to go to Washington for college and I absolutely rip on Texas all the time but I was born and raised there and my entire family is still there while I'm in Washington and dying in school because the grading system is so much harder than that of Texas. But I'm not going to lie and say it isn't bad because it's freaking hard. My family is at home it's a struggle because I'm barely ever home and it because I realized I rely on my family a lot more than I expect.
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