okay.. today i would like to ask if me is a good or bad friends😔.

Semester1..

I change my practicum, New friends,New subject,New environment. during that time I have 2 friends that I comfortable with. Najwa and Fiqah.. Fiqah is okay and Najwa is okay but I thing that I can't forget is when I at mosque, she call me that I take her eraser.. I told her that I will give it back to het tomorrow because her hostel is kind of far with my hostel..But she still want her eraser that night.. so, I fasterly going back to my room and go to her room.It's tiring..Except both of them, I still can't adapt with my other classmates.

Semester2

Nchange class and F join other group. Conclusion i don't have any friends anymore except my roomates.. So, after class, I more spend my time with my roomates until the end of semester 2. Beside that, I started friend with one of my classmates known as k. She has a bestfriend in our class but i don't have friend so, i started to friend with her. Her bestfriend don't like it so, i give up.. i don't want they fight with each other but THEY FIGHT!!! after that , it's settle but not bestie like the past.. it's okay as long they did not fight with each other.

Semester3

I moved to another dorm. There is no more my old roomates.. new roomates, all are juniors..this time, i started to friend with other friends named H,S,M(k ex bestfriend).. so, i join their group. S is always with Haiza.. H is like Sarra assistant.. She will do anything for S. even S is wrong, she will support S.. #clap your hand #friendshipgoal-_-.. S is a person will sound directly without think other feeling.. that's S.. while M always jealous.. idk what wrong with her, she always make sure H in her room.. if not, She will tell me that H is not in her room.. She must with S..She started to think negaritive.. oh god what wrong with you!!! While me " i don't care actually.. they can go anywhere that they want. I'm totally not jealous.. " one more thing.. they always talk bad aboit N.. when they talk about her, i just in silent mode.. i know N.. so, there is no reason for them to talk bad about her.. I can't.. 

Semester4

M getting worst.. She always think that we must always in 4.. she don't get it.. S always want only H while me always wanna alone.. She always think negative and will tell me anything.. i'm stress.. i can be a good listener but if She just want to told me what she think S and Hdoing right now, can u get out? let them be.. these 2 are bestfriend.. They just want you when they need you.. can't you get it M. sometimes i feel pity with M but sometimes, she is too much.. idk.. 

less than 3 weeks, i will leave this college.. so, goodbye memories.. i wish i can erase all bitter moments.. just sweet moments will be in my heart forever..

idk.. i just feel I same with them.. talk bad about them but i just wanna tell what i kept in my heart when i live hear.. Actually, i more like to be alone.. this is me..