I've been thinking about this for months now and the thoughts haven't ceased. So, I think it's time to express it.

Should I transfer colleges? 

I attend a school that is ranked 2nd tier in the state.  This didn't bother me when I was an Education major. But since I'm a Marketing intent major now, I'm worried. Business is all about who you know rather than what you know. And I'll need any edge I can get to get a job after college.

I'm not saying, my school doesn't have connections. I know a person who got an internship at Disney World. And I've heard stories of people going off to do great things. But is it better to be a big fish in a small pond or a small fish in a big pond??

I'm content here. Classes are small (about 20 to 50 people), I made a few friends, I have a job working with the president, I'll have another job next year, campus life is adequate, I might be going to France my junior year. I shouldn't be complaining right?

I see people at Ivy Leagues and Big 10 universities and I feel inferior. I feel like I'm wasting my scholarship money. I feel like, because I don't have to pay for college, I should  be somewhere else.

I can easily apply to a different college. My GPA is pretty high enough to have options. But deep down, I don't want to. I'm comfortable here. But sometimes I want more.

Sometimes I wish if I would have had a different mindset about college. Would I have chosen the better, bigger school I got accepted to? But I wanted to stay close to home, less than an hour away, and go to a smaller school.

If I would have been more open minded would I be somewhere else? But if I would've gone somewhere else would I be this content?

I just wish these thoughts would stop. Honestly, I wish I was interested in STEM and I wish I would have gotten higher test scores to get into a better school initially. Then I wouldn't have to worry about transferring.

I would also like to point out that most people from my high school don't go to college. We don't have AP classes, our academic performance is low. Only about 20 out of about 150 go to college or military. So for me to earn a scholarship and go to a 4 year university  (regardless of rank) is a huhe accomplishment.  I unofficially became a poster child for my school and I received so much disdain when I decided to turn down a bigger college.

I don't know what to do right now. I should forgot about the what ifs and stop comparing myself to other people. I don't regret going to this college and transferring won't guarantee a job anyway.

If I do transfer, I don't know how I will react to the bigger campus and/or competitive nature.

I am planning to get a masters and I realize that I can go somewhere "better" for that, but I can't help wonder.