Just a heads up: This post isn't really going to be about the issues that other articles/posts criticizing 13RW are talking about. I've seen people's issues with how it graphically depicted suicide and how that romanticizes her suicide, and how Hannah was treated by her counselor & how that discourages suicidal people from going to their counselors. Personally, I appreciated the show's inclusion of those things. Unhelpful counselors and doctors are definite problems that suicidal people can encounter (I've experienced it myself). And the show's graphic depictions of things like suicide and made it very real. 

This is mainly going to be about other stuff. 

THIS WILL HAVE SPOILERS!!!

This weekend, I finished the show 13 Reasons Why. People had been saying it was incredible and amazing and I had to watch it, so I did. I have SO many issues with it. 

I'm just going to briefly mention these problems so I can spend more time talking about my main issue with the show. TBH, you can skip these and go down to the most important part at the bottom if you don't have time. Because I want y'all to read that the most: 

1. Hannah had no right to blame Clay for not telling her to stay. Clay clearly understood the concept of consent- when Hannah told him to leave, he did. How can you blame someone who clearly cares about you for following your words? Guys. This is not a fairytale. The boy you like isn't magically going to know when you're sad or suicidal and guide you through it. It's your ing responsibility to talk to someone about it. Holy . 
2. Also, why didn't Hannah talk to Kat (her old friend) about her issues? 
3. CLOSE YOUR ING BLINDS, HANNAH. 
4. Hannah could have stopped her friend from getting , and she wants to make it all about herself and say that her inability to prevent something so horrible was another contributing factor to her suicide? I get that the show wanted to make Hannah a well-rounded character and show that she had flaws, but holy , she's a terrible person, just like the rest of these people. 
5. Hannah treated her suicide like one last cruel act of revenge. Like she got the last word and all these people would be sorry. She didn't leave ANYTHING or ANY explanation for her parents, the people who clearly loved her and cared about her. She cared more about getting that last jab into the people who were mean to her in high school. 
6. There's so much more but I'm getting a headache just thinking about it. Also I would expound on these previous points but again, headache. 

THE MAIN THING!!!!!

I KNOW that if I was in middle/high school, I would have loved this show. I would've thought it was relatable and deep and showed what was ~wrong~ with our society, blah blah!

But now that I'm in college.... all that I could think of when I was watching the show was "Wow, this is so high school."

(Of course, some of the show/reasons were HEARTBREAKING, and I'm not going to spoil anything, but I do like a few things that the show did- they hit very hard and were done very well.). 

For those of you in high school or middle school, please, PLEASE listen to me. Yes, it when the whole school is spreading rumors about you, or the boy you like breaks your heart, or you feel like you're drowning and NO one cares. It's horrible, I know. I've been THROUGH that . 

KEY PHRASE: I HAVE BEEN THROUGH IT. I GOT THROUGH IT. AS WILL YOU. BECAUSE HIGH SCHOOL- AND I KNOW IT DOESN'T SEEM LIKE THIS NOW- IS TEMPORARY. IF YOU WORK HARD, YOU WILL MOVE ON FROM THAT HOLE AND GO TO COLLEGE/GET SOME KICKASS JOB/DO SOMETHING THAT YOU LOVE. 

Sorry for the caps LOL I'm just so angry!!! Guys like, my entire senior year was (along with my first semester of college). I literally lost all my friends for no reason, and worse, they talked HELLA about me to everyone. My parents were absolutely awful, I was forced to go to a college I didn't want to, all my dreams were crushed, I felt like I had 0 future, the guy I liked (who also started hating me) started dating my best friend (who also !!), my supposed other best friend tried getting me drunk so I'd hook up with her BF's friend, I tried using partying as an escape (which led to even WORSE ) like do I need to go on!!!!!!!!!! At the time, it felt like hell on Earth!!!! I tried OD'ing and when it didn't work, instead of being happy I was alive, I was pissed as that I didn't die!!

And I have no doubt that the rest of y'all are experiencing as bad as this! Look! YOU CAN LITERALLY GET THROUGH IT!!

Hannah made no effort to change her life. Every time someone new came into her life, she was like oh!!! maybe they'll be my Friend!!!!

Except for joining that poetry group, Hannah didn't join any new clubs, try and meet any new people, and didn't even go ONLINE to find communities of people who loved the same stuff that she did. Yes, what happened to her at the poetry group w/ the journalist dude really ing . But that shouldn't scar you for life and make you never want to join another club/interest group again. 

Also, there were hella ing people at that school. I mostly only saw Hannah interacting with people in the popular group??? Let's be real. In all my time in high school, I interacted with the /popular group/ a handful of times. Most of my friends were the "nerds", but everyone was super chill. And tbh (this varies across schools, of course), but even most of the people in the popular group were pretty chill.  Like Hannah. Go find other people in different groups. People aren't just going to come up to you and be like hey(: wanna b friends(:

I think the real thing that annoys me is that Hannah didn't go online and try and find support/help at least. My senior year, AFF was my lifeline. Like, if it wasn't for the friends I made on AFF, I would've done even more drastic things. 

ALSO PEOPLE HAVE THEIR OWN PROBLEMS!!! IT'S NOT THEIR RESPONSIBILITY TO CONSTANTLY CHECK UP ON YOU AND DEAL WITH YOUR . ALSO, IF YOU COMPLAIN HELLA TO OTHER PEOPLE AND NEVER ASK/ABOUT LISTEN TO THEIR PROBLEMS, YOU'RE A PIECE OF LMAO.

Guys. If you have no friends, or you're dealing with a ton of , you need to go out and MAKE your life better. Work HELLA hard to achieving your goals. This could mean dedicating all your time to studying, or dedicating a ton of your time to improving your art skills, or (I personally recommend this!!) learning to code. Honestly, if you have nothing else, learn how to code. You will literally be a ing baller and can earn hella money in the future. Plus, it's cool as . And fun. 

Anyway. I told you about my ty senior year. Where am I now? 

Well, I have a ton of friends, and a group of 7 other girls who are the most amazing, supportive people EVER. I found them in COLLEGE. We're literally all from different cities/states. I'm in clubs I LOVE, and discovered that I have a true passion for event planning and management. I'm learning Korean and about all these really cool subjects that my colleges offers.

And I am going to spend this summer farming in different places around the world, INCLUDING SOUTH KOREA!!! (yes I am so ing excited y'all don't even KNOW!) I'm going through WWOOF (and if you're 18, you can sign up for this today!! If you're under 18 you can go with a parent/guardian!!). Farming is something that I NEVER would have done, but I'm doing things outside of my comfort zone and exploring. That's what you do. You don't committ suicide. Because there are so many incredible things on this planet that you haven't even experienced yet. 

Make LONG-TERM goals for yourself. Not goals that are like "I want to be happy" or "I want to have a friend". Although those are important, you need to be more SPECIFIC. What would make you happy? Would learning how to jet-ski on some beach make you happy? Would saving enough money to visit Hawaii make you happy? PLAN FOR THOSE THINGS AND WORK FOR THOSE THINGS!!!! That's another thing. One part of it is making the goal- the other is making active steps to achieve the goal. GO MAKE ACTIVE STEPS!!

ARGH!! IM SO HEATED RIGHT NOW!! IF YOU NEED HELP, OR YOU'RE GOING THROUGH AN AWFUL TIME RIGHT NOW, PLEASE ING MESSAGE ME!!!! WE WILL FIGURE OUT THE REST OF YOUR LIFE TOGETHER, BECAUSE NO ING WAY IN HELL ARE YOU GOING TO SIT THERE AND FEEL HORRIBLE BECAUSE YOU DO NOT DESERVE TO FEEL HORRIBLE BECAUSE YOU'RE AN AMAZING PERSON WITH SO MUCH ING POTENTIAL. GOD. IM SO ANGRY. 13 REASONS WHY. LOL. OK BYE.