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So lately due to uhh fanfic research purpose...i've been refreshing some of my bad guy(2010 kdrama, SBS) memories n impression...and i've just been rewatching the last episode just a couple hours ago n got excited to blabber bout it...boohoo.

This drama got a lot of negative response...that from what i see, majorly came from the not-happy ending...

and i think the ending is absolutely affecting and nice in poetic way, for such a poorly constructed plot...i mean it had the premise/ideas...but then they got so engrossed in making it about complication of relationships rather than the original revenge plot. and the worst part for me, is that the lead guy is made as a so called revenge machine without much of layers that i can appreciate...and his emotions(which were rare) hardly felt organic maybe save for some occassions...not sure if it's the directing/script/or acting...while the heroine...while there were those who liked for being antiheroine of some sorts...i found her all over the place...and poor acting didn't help. for such a wth heroine...you'd need strong actress to be able to make her likable despite her flaws. because of course we're supposed to like the heroine...at some point at the very least...

Anyway, i keep seeing complaints about the ending...but i actually think the ending saved the drama...well, that, and also my ship Gun Wook-Tae Ra,

even if he's never sincere n was just using her for idk what...to...uhh, destruct the family perhaps?(and even though at times i find him a little annoying, and even though i also ship Gun Wook  alittttttle bit with Tae Sung lol) and also, the cinematography n mood of the drama n the music...and the interesting Hong Family(sans the eldest brother)....Tae Sung n Mo Nae were interesting in their own ways...though Mo Nae was never among my favs(though i must admit...i'm interested in what goes in her mind...i do think her dark turn made her so much more interesting than the initially naive girl in puppy crush land)...and the ending showed that she's the creepiest of all the bad guys/girls in the show...haa. i adore the ending mostly for the Hong family. Tae Ra rised up to take control of the company n family and showed me why she's my fav character(she's the actual reason i even bothered giving a try to the drama in the first place), i loved that moment of Tae Ra n Tae Sung when she's trying to stop him from leaving saying no one will be abandoned anymore and she could take care of him, even after knowing they're not related at all...n how they comforted each other(these two were the true survivors/winners of the show who came out better than when they started)...why did this sibling love only happen at the end when they're no longer siblings? i ship their siblingness too /cries/ they hurt me so good even if their ending wasn't as in your face tragic as Gun Wook. And then there's Mo Nae going about her fancy life.../shudders/...my only complaint is justice/karma is not served when it comes to Madam Shin.. ugh. that evil crazy woman.(ok, Monae too...where's Kang Kwonjoo n Moo Jinhyuk when we need them to bring some justice? lol i mean girl is a freaking murderer) but isn't this the reality you'd expect tbh? justice is never for everyone...sadly, that's what we get in real world...Tae Ra's moment with President Hong/her Dad was touching too...she was so hopeful for their family to get back together one day and be happy...it breaks my heart...and when she received that parcel...with notes to her daughter....simply put...whenever there's Tae Ra in the scene...the scene became superb for me lol.

And the ending montage of Hong family-with Taera becoming CEO, Taesung embarking on life journey with his new identity as a nobody, and Monae of course enjoying her days uncaring that she murdered a person n oblivious that it was her own brother at that, and Jae In as she narrated Gun Wook's letter...with Gun Wook's dead body elsewhere...and with all of them still feeling hopeful for a happy ending...not knowing of his death....it hurts...but it hurts so good. Why are people hating on this ending? The whole drama was depicted in gloomy tone....were they expecting 'and they live happily ever after' ending? sure...it'd have been nice n fluffy surprise...but the drama was never obligated to give you that kinda ending when it never hinted for it...or did it?

Which reminds me of Autumn Shower(2005, MBC)..another heavily criticized drama which i've talked about before but who cares? i'm repetitive...hahah...mostly probly for the poor rating, the adultery and the not-happy ending(newsflash: nobody died btw)...i love how the drama didn't romanticize adultery but show how circumstances can lead to it and how that can lead to regrets that can never be undone and pain that leave you with scar that could never be erased no matter how you try to rectify it. the ending was so realistic and calm in totally heartbreaking way that even years after watching it....i could feel the pain. (dare i say this drama still holds record for my fav ending in kdrama out of the ones i've watched so far) i still feel sad for the three main characters mainly...for the two ladies' friendships that could never be mend again, and for the guy who lost everything for not being able to choose...it's not their fault entirely...but life situations pushed them to their decisions...i feel that adultery in this drama was executed a 958675867858970959 better than On the Way to the Airport...and i love that drama for its atmosphericness and the tone...but how the hero n heroine spouses were portrayed as badddddddd...i found so childish and resorting to cheap excuse...their baddnesssss were almost cartoonish level...which is a shame bcuz it's such a waste of the actors' talents...and i feel it's a coward move to vilainize them to such point just to justify adultery of the main otp...when they could've portrayed it in a more mature n delicate manner...still, if we're to look in relationship aspect, i love that drama for Kim Haneul n Choi Yeojin friendship moments...i kept waiting for the spouses to be humanized a little...especially her husband...but i was left disappointed in that aspect...and i found the lead guy totally boring n kinda shady instead of swoony unlike many other felt...haa...

I guess...all in all, happy endings can be nice...and hopeful...but unhappy endings are powerful. Open endings are nice too, though i noticed this kinda ending are often hated as well...oh well...what do i expect from the oh so highly drama folks? for me, if real life are full of happy endings, will fictions even exist in the first place? Sure, for those who enjoy dramas as merely escapism maybe they have valid reasons for hating unhappy endings so much...but not everyone watch dramas for some fluffy escape. Sometimes comfort can even come from facing the worst. but to declare something as bad just cuz it doesn't suit your personal preference is...hmmm...a not very objective argument for a supposedly objective conclusion.

What i learnt from my drama experience with the drama folks with oh so great a taste n flair...never trust n just blindly eat up overly negative/or even overly positive response...especially when it's for reasons that make me go...'eh?'...afterall, i'm almost always a rebel against the majority's sentiment on almost anything anyway, not for the sake of it, just happened that way lol. Who cares if 99% says it's super bad or super good? Taste is never a fact or some legit chart, people just make it as such to feed our own ego. Why would what the world think matter rather than what we think of it on our own when the subject really isn't about right or wrong objectively?

Never be afraid to be alone, as long as you're being yourself.

not the most practical advise...it's idealistic...but realistically? practically?....no.

Alrite...should stop useless rambling for now. it's cringe, i know that too lol.

and try to write something uhh...productive? instead...