As far as I can remember, I became an army three years ago. BTS' songs are really catchy and meaningful. Each members participated on producing songs and I can see that they are very talented. I was so crazy that I found myself crying because of them. I was so desperate to go to their concert that I even planned to rebel against my parents and go on my way but fortunately, that didn't happen. 

When I was in Grade 9, my friends left me. I felt so alone and lonely at the same time. I thought that I have no one in life anymore. I cannot even trust my family because of the bullying experience I had back in Grade 8. Together with pressure and school works that worn me out emotionally. I started spazzing on twitter, checking every updates on them, buying their albums, etc. Up to the point that my acc became big and had many followers. BTS became my escape from everything. A distraction.

But now, the spark is beginning to fade. The flame isn't there anymore. I just don't feel like spazzing or tweeting about them now. Idk. I'm still a fan but it's not the same as before. Maybe because of school? 

Anyways, I will still continue to support them. They are growing and getting the recognition they deserve. Their popularity is rising and new fans are coming. They even got daesang awards and I'm so proud of them because they are reaching their dreams. All of their hardwork are being paid off. I guess I'm going back to being a silent spazzer?