romantic + understanding villain + friend req + randomness etc.

 

opening song

 

i kid you not. my mind is too jammed lately...from too much input of romantic songs...mostly, not new but i just feel like listening to them again n bam...i'm in love again. so much so that i'm seeing everything(ok not really...but a lot of things?) in romantic light...and i even wondered if i should write a romantic short fic to get them feels out of my system quickly...lol.

back to opening song, Yoon Jong Shin is a musician/singer whose music style i think, is something i find dependable if i'm looking for something to listen to...i wouldn't say all his music make me go crazy but they're listenable and every now and then...if you dig enough...you find something that just clicks in so well with you...me, i mean...lol. Oh...and if you know SM Station...they probly copied the concept from him anyway(though i'm not sure if he's the first or not)...for years he had been releasing new song monthly as his monthly project n upload on his yt. many of the songs sung by him but he did do collabs or projects with other singers where they sing the songs he composed.

the song above is ost from movie beauty inside, with han hyo joo n a thousand guys+girls who acted as her lover who change face everytime he fall asleep or sth...interesting premise...but after reading multiple reviews...it sounded shallower than i thought it'd be...which is unfortunate if that's really the case bcuz the setup sounded like it could be something heartgrabbing thought provoking especially with title like beauty inside...i always love any deep stuffs that make you think/feel....but somehow...Korean movies hardly ever impress me...they often come across as pretentious...n trying hard to look/feel artistic but lacking substance.

i love the song tho. so dreamy n romantic...xD

 


 

Speaking of songs...i always wonder this...

Whenever i come across fanvideos of any sort by international fans...

the background music almost always would be english language songs...

it makes me wonder...

Do kpop fans really love kpop for the music? or just for the groups, the dance, the personalities, etc other than music? 

genuinely curious,

because....idk...when i do fanvids...i can't even choose between all the korean songs battling in my head...too many to choose from...

none is superior than the other...genuinely curious cuz kpop fans are often so damn passionate worshipping their favs with unbeatable praises that the song choices often made me a lil...curious? and for the record, nobody is saying you can't use english songs, sheesh no need to be hyperdefensive for nothing...

when i was small child...i listened to english songs...mostly those billboard top20 chart stuffs....then during elementary school i got into malay/local mainstream music...so i listened to both...then later on...i got into indonesian music/mostly those bands...and only about a decade ago...i got into Kpop...later shifted towards nonmainstream...

eversince i got into kmusic...i just have lost connection to development of other music scenes...i mean i still loved my old favs...but the newer ones that came up....i have no clue...maybe i'm limiting myself...or maybe i'm just choosing to stay in my comfort zone cuz it's,....comfortable....maybe i just happen to like a lot of Korean music i heard...as opposed to the rest that i sometimes came upon...

But yeas....something i like about making fanvideo...especially of something popular(or kinda popular...cuz let's face it...how many things that are actually really popular that i stan? uhhh....)

is that...i get to brag/show off my music taste....which is something i'm proud of...and expose more of the music i enjoy...some are popular...but not with international fans...of course sometimes i'm just choosing songs that fit even if it's by big name...most of the music i love aren't the chart toppers or best sellers...but who cares if they're not. they're awesome. people's loss.

 


 

Anyway...speaking of fanvideos...

of course...i made another video for my Voice otp...

at this point...it's redundant...and i'm feeling very much self conscious about this obsession...but this is just the way i love...n why would i feel that bad when i had done like 10 vids for kevkwang ship alone...haa...(of course, their abundance of vids is inevitable since they had tons of moments even if their 'love' always feel heartbleedingly onesided but yeah)

Introducing....a peek into the love-life of MTG in his own unique definition n ways of expressing...(at least from how i perceive it)

This video...is very much alike with the first one i made(back when i had no clue how to get pass the blocking...)

since i'm kinda perfectionist for the most useless things(n never for the important things)...i couldn't shake off that feeling that i need to redo the vid...

but this time...i improvised it a lil...and changed the focus to all the clues that show our resident psycho isn't just interested in our heroin merely in that predator n interesting prey dynamics but more than that.

the explanation can be found in the video description...lazy to take them out to here...

Needless to say i'm very pleased again to parade n show off some of my fav songs in my fanvid...especially the third song...although it's kinda weird to use TETE's song since dude's song is just all romantic n mellow/melancholic dreamy stuffs...but i guess it kinda work since spring dance melody has this thrilling mystical mysterious feel to it...regardless of the lyrics...

I first found about TETE through my random search for new songs to listen to...and i stumbled upon his best song ever. i was so so affected by it that i mindlessly started a fic based on the feelings the song left me with. thankfully, i had strong feels for the otp n the story too, and so i managed to complete 19 chapters of gloomy melancholic journey with my characters and gorgeous indie/nonmainstream melancholic music galore that helped me a lot in getting the feels.

I might not be good at writing or at being consistent n finishing my started works, or at being talented n determined and disciplined etc etc., or at being a good friend, or at being likable, or at being mysterious, but one thing i truly believe i'm good at is at having good taste. haha, hate me if you must, as we all know taste is subjective...but there are times i'm shamelessly honest of my annoying shamelessness. (actually, i'm good at talking too much too in this site...basically almost anything negative...i'm good at lol)

anyway...

I'm having so much fun making fanvids of this couple...now that i've ran out of material...i wonder if i should make vids of kwonjoo n taegu from diff universe lol....aka...other dramas/movies...lol. talk about extra dose of delusion...

would that make me a creepy obsessive shipper? bcuz it's not like i want to burden the actors themselves with my excessive shipping(i think they're already awkward enough n not exactly on much friendly terms n imagine the horror if they find the abundance of shipping happening)...i'm not that delusional despite the things i made might suggest me being that...i certainly won't let myself be heartbroken when my imaginary ships get broken by real deals...

 


 

I'm so happy and thankful my new fic is getting comments. getting one comment(that shows they actually read)means so much more than getting a thousand upvotes or a million silent subs. imagine getting two? haa. i'm so happy that i went around reading my other fics(lol)...because i'm not one of those great writers who'd say 'oh did i really write like that? i don't even read my own fic'...nah, i'm shameless enough to admit i love reading my own fics(unless i got so sick of 'em) and spot typos everytime -_- (well, excuse me...cuz i don't write in any of those autocorrect editor thingy...i only write on notepad lol...)

So...i've been reading my drabbles for my personal project i wrote last year to cheer for myself during some unpleasant times...and one thing i realized is...i write better oneshot than chaptered fics, and i write better drabbles than oneshots...looking back...i'm amazed at some random ideas i never thought i'd have(when the time those drabbles were written, i was in need of an outlet to vent out my personal frustration rather than in that creative mode, so many of the drabbles derived from personal feelings...but the ones that didn't...some were really random...)...reading some of them...made me wonder...what if i make them into oneshot/longer fic...to allow them development? But you know what...maybe not...sometimes, the charm lies in the limitedness, the scarcity, the questions raised rather than the answers given...maybe if i try make any of the drabbles longer...they might lose any little charm they even had in the first place...even if just in my eyes.

Makes me think if i should start a new collection of drabbles...who cares if i don't have readers as usual...i have me -my biggest fan ever lol. it's just that...i'm amazed at how much you can tell in such few words n revelation. words/length can be so pretentious. we often judge something good by how much detailing/description/or just lengthiness...when the more we see...the lesser space left in the imagination/interpretation...then again, not everyone seek for that. so...

 

Speaking of ideas...today, while on a bus ride....i got an idea...and it's absurd that i got that idea from the romantic songs i'm listening bcuz that idea is not romantic at all...but it's definitely the kind of stuff i love to write...we shall see...though new stories would mean halt/slowness on existing ones... 

 


 

Oh..there's one thing i'm wondering....

From people who add me...and mostly haven't been accepted yet(which means you probly won't see this?)

I'm just curious....

Why did you people even add me?

I don't remember having had interaction...

Even many friends in my list never interacted with me even once...and i'm gradually deleting them bcuz i don't see the point in such 'friendship'...i mean...if you added me so randomly...am i supposed to be the one to say hi n so on?

if you're unwilling to say anything...please don't put me in dilemma by randomly adding me...

i'm really not that friendly...unless to people who are friendly to me...lol.

Is friendship just a number?

Not to me....

i have expectations from people and from myself...

i always remind people who wanted to add me...of how i'm not as nice as i may seem n how unfriendly or harsh or annoying i can be...

Even more so....i feel like people who added me without having said anything to me....are people who don't even bother going to my profile page cuz if you did...you'd know better than to randomly add me...

Why would you add someone you're not even interested in checking out their profile?

i don't get it.

 


 

On a slightly different note...i'm noticing i've been having some stalkers from SK lately...which is freaking creepy...i mean..if it's just casual readers...fine...but what if they're scriptwriter of Voice who wants to sue me now cuz i labeled my fanfic as a sequel....omg......

excuse my imagination..it can run a little wild...

just a little. heh.

i do have certain respect for the writer cuz she made the female characters in Voice cool, awesome, badass in their own ways(despite the lacking in character development) n lovable...even the minor/cameo ones like the victims. let's face it, it's easier to find female writers who write crap female characters in kdramaland...while focusing all perfection for the male leads. glad that's not the case with Voice's writer.

i loved Moo Jin Hyuk's wife too...they're a ship i can ship bcuz the little flashback of the time when he liked her(probly before they got married) was so cute...><...although it's a pity afterwards....he got so focused on work that the wife died tragically without happy time before the tragedy.

 

okay, random but i love the vibe of this latest pic of unnir on her instagram....i love how she's always diligent with what she loves even if it's not what she's mostly known for by the public.

 


 

alright...to end this post...let's have some songs i find romantic n love...

these are the lighter/lighthearted ver...n maybe incomplete..just the ones i can think of for now...

i have like a whole other list for the melancholic romantic...let me know if you like songs here and want that other side of romantic as well...

and i didn't add in any TETE song cuz....all his songs are romantic...lol. n his are more towards those gloomy ones.

and you best believe the songs here might appear someday in my otpvids...i'm just waiting for the right ship that fit the feels of these lighter dreamy romantic songs.

speaking of that...i'm still thinking whether or not i should make a vid for Voice only (almost)loveline...the PPL couple. it's just that no song come to mind when i watch their cute scenes.

 

 

omg...i just realized....the lack of female in this list....-_-...

 

 

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