I am so sorry guys

Oh my god.... So I am sorry guys.. I went MIA and haven't wrote anything.... Things I promised to update, I till keep that promise because I do not believe in trashing a fic when so many people are invested in it... Or at least I hope people are still at least interested...

So I started a new medicine... It s with my memory, my sleep, and my interest... But it's not doing what it's supposed to do.... The depression is there still... the feelings I have are still there and it's difficult... Honestly...

I am trying I really am.. Not just for myself but, for my family, friends, and you guys....

I want to write again, I want to draw again... *sigh*

 

This is an apology but also a promise, that I WILL post something again... I will NOT leave my stories... It will take some time but I will return.

 

Health Update:

I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and Borderline Personality... all of that on top of my severe depression and anxiety I'm masking...

Noone knows the real me... My mother my counselor.... No one knows because I cannot let that show... the moment I do.. is the moment I break... And I'm not sure if I will be fixable then... So I'm putting my faith in "Fake it until you make it".. Best option so far.

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taekwonmeover
#1
Please be sure to take care of yourself and stay healthy, I know it's really hard esp with getting used to new meds so be kind to yourself ok? Sending you hugs if you want them!
BTS_Young_Forever
#2
And please dont worry about writing. Get yourself together first. This stuff can wait. Your health is more important and if you're other readers can't see that then they need a reality check.
BTS_Young_Forever
#3
I feel you on the depression and anxiety part. Faking it isn't healthy though. One day that mask is gonna fall off and everyone is gonna see what you've been hiding. If you're sad, be sad. If you're angry, be angry. Hiding it makes it worse.

I'm speaking from experience.
TheBadAss
#4
I completely understand about the real me part... My life is full of lies and unhappiness. I can at least express myself online cuz no one knows me and I can ask for opinions from anyone. My online life is separated feom real life but I sometimes feel I'm becoming too connected to my phone/laptop. It's just nobody understands. I just hope your okay with everything ^^