I don't want to beat around the bush.

I'M A TERRIBLE PERSON. You want to know why? Even though I write my fanfics and put BTS as characters, I can't help but despise them. No. I loath them. Why? I don't even know. I just don't like them. Even though I like their songs and all, I can't help but felt a deep hatred towards them.

I don't like it when someone mentioned BTS in front of me.

I don't like it whenever I go, the magazines and news are all about BTS.

I REALLY HATE IT WHEN SOMEONE COMPARED BTS TO EXO!

When they win awards that I really hoped EXO win, I felt really down, sad, disappointed but mostly, angry. I kept on asking why, why, why? EXO supposed to win this, not BTS!

I tried really hard to get rid this hatred on them since I don't want to grow up as a person who hold grudge and hatred. I wrote this post because I felt that if I kept this forever, the hatred will eat me up and I will become a really, really, really terrible person like what happened to anti-fans or haters.

I don't want to be like them. No. I WON'T BE LIKE THEM! That's why, I wrote this because I want to release all this bottled up feeling. I don't want to be a villain. I just want to be a person who enjoy music and ignore all the pointless fanwars.

To ARMY who read this, I deeply apologized if this post make you angry. I just don't want to become haters because of hatred that welled deep inside in me. Even though, I understand if this post anger you.

I, after all, just a mere child who is naive and immature.

Please forgive me if this post hurt you. I just don't want to resent BTS because of their achievement. I want to be happy for them and get rid all my envious, jealous and petty feelings. Please understand me. I'm hopeless with my emotions and feeling.

Sincerely,

Nyreen.