04-07-// dear diary, I feel upset, really sad. just sitting on (younger brothers bed) reading a sad book. sister1 just said something not nice about me to sister2 and she replied.they do that alot, talking about me, like im a wall. except people don't say bad things about walls and they don't satb the walls back. dad and mom do that too, so do my friends except ***sa, **ra, ***ak, ***en, and ****ese. except they do that too,I hear them, I see them but I act. I think im a good actor. that's the reason I have a bad attitude. but you know, I guess that's my own fault, mine only. nobody else to blame but me. not that there is anybody else there for me haha. hope I make some new friends. oh well. im looking forward to the library. with manga, and books, there's nothing better. ( this is an old diary entry I found in an old hardback a few minutes ago. I changed nothing in it. I didn't write my friends' full names because I dont have their consent to.) ((I'll have everyone know that this is from a long while ago))