This is just a random update about how I'm doing in college so feel free to read or to not read.

Long story short: I survived the semester lol

So basically, I just finished my first semester of my second year and holy crap was it tough. I had to take bio, orgo II (which includes lecture, recitation and lab), 2 philosophy classes, a theology, and my pharmacy class. I knew it was going to be a tough semester because I was taking 2 sciences at once but man, it was just crazy.

I actually quite enjoyed my bio. My professor was young and super chill and there were times where she was just like "to hell with it" when she realized that some slides were useless. She was always open for extra help since we had a whole text messaging system with her and it definitely helped since that class had like 130 people. I did super bad on the first test like I totally underestimated myself. I realized that I had to get my together and I did pretty good on the last 2 tests but I could've done better. She told me that my final grade was a B+ but she bumped me up to an A when I checked online and I just teared up a little :')

My pharmacy class was boring af like I would just go on Facebook or Tumblr during class because my professor posted the lecture slides online anyways so whatever. But I probably should've paid attention because he gave pop quizzes during class twice and I was just like . I still passed the class but I could've done better as well.

I hate philosophy with a passion because it's just useless to me. Like some of the readings my philosophy professor discussed during class were interesting but most of the time, I fell asleep during class because he was hella boring. He's the kind of professor that spoke in a monotone and didn't seem enthusiastic about the topic and those are the worst. Also, he gave a whole bunch of papers where we had to read at least 3 readings to write a paper that was 2 pages max. It was so annoying and his tests were also essays. I've never written so many papers for a class until I met him OTL

It was also my first time taking a class online (metaphysics) and like it was okay tbh. It's just mostly discussions on the readings he posts online as well as quizzes based on them. The only thing is that I often forgot when the discussion posts were due so I would do everything at the last minute lol. I would recommend online classes to people if they can manage their time and remember all the due dates

Oh my god my theology was so annoying as well. Like it was an easy A but my professor was just all over the place and made us do so much work like it wasn't worth it. She required 4 books for her class, made us do volunteer work and attend "learning communities" and made us do a few papers and a debate. What pissed me off the most was that my group presented our debates early since we were group 2 and I thought those who presented wouldn't have to come to class but she's like "you still have to come". She made us have class the day after classes officially ended because there were still groups who didn't present and she was like "attendance is mandatory and we're gonna be here for 2 hours like a final" bTU SHE LET US OUT WHEN CLASS REGULARLY ENDED. I was so pissed. That's why I didn't even pay attention and started working on my final papers for other classes lol.

Now comes the fun part: orgo. I didn't expect to struggle that much but boy, it was on a different level. The professor I wanted quit last semester to teach in a different uni so there was a huge influx of new professors this semester which because it meant that we were probably their first class and we didn't know how they worked. My professor was a sweetheart and he tried his best to help out everyone to his best but sometimes he just made things way more complicated than they needed to be. He used to be an organic chemist so he was really knowledgeable about the stuff we were learning but I still don't understand why he had to make things harder than they had to be. We only had 2 lecture exams this semester and I was super stressed because I failed both of them (passing was 60 but I got 57 on both /cries). That's when I started worrying about the final and I kept on emailing my professor with questions and even went to his office hours (only once since there were a ton of people going to him during finals week) and I studied my off. Like I'm talking doing the practice test, going over previous exams, making study guides, finding online sources to answer any questions I had, etc. I even cried several times and felt depressed because I was so stressed out about chem but strangely when I sat down for the final, I didn't panic like I normally do. I took all 2 and a half hours they gave us for the exam and I walked out of there literally feeling nothing. I didn't know what to expect so when I got the email about final grades being released, I was super nervous. When I saw that I passed, I just started screaming because I PASSED. Even my mom, who had to comfort me when I cried, was happy for me because she knew stressed I was and knowing that I passed was like a big burden being lifted from my shoulders.

Now I'm enjoying my break since finals ended on Monday but I'm a bit worried about next semester since I have to take biochem and anatomy and if I thought I was stressed out this semester, I'm pretty sure I'm going to be more stressed next month. Also, I have to keep my math and science GPA a 3.0 since that's a requirement for my program and I had a 2.7 from last semester so I was stressed about not being able to meet it this semester but I did somehow (I think) so I'm in the safe zone for now. 

All that's left is to get through next semester and pass my progression interview to make sure that I pass on to the 3rd year (I get my white coat then) but knowing me, I'm just gonna worry all day every day.

Anywho, if you read this entire essay, thank you and I hope you all had a great semester or first half of the school year c:

Also, I haven't really been active and I can't promise that I will be my program is extremely taxing and time consuming but I'll post drabbles and stuff from time to time.