I have a friend who was once a really close friend of mine. I tend to remember those who are close to me, since I don't really have lots of people I love to be around with. And being the first peson who wanted to befriend me when I transferred, I can't forget her.

Last week was her Sweet 17. I congratulated her at school but I don't think it's enough. 

I wonder if it's fine to suddenly gives her presents after 3 years of contact loss, I guess it's fine. 

We were close, and I think I'm the one who messed it up. 

We're pretty awkward now, despite constant 'Hello's from me.

Though I'm glad she has lots of people cares for her, and much, much better friends than I was being, I don't like how distant we are now.

Are we just gonna call out to each other when we need help or- 

Why is it so hard to let go of the past and just hold on to promising posibilities?

I may be the only one out of us fretting so much about this, hm?

Anyways I'd like to think of this as a consequence for what I've done.

:(