Have you ever felt like you need to do something for your otp?

I literally tried everything what a normal shipper would do:

- Write fics

- Photoshopped pics

- Do fanmade videos

- Spazz in so many social web accs 

- Collect merch

(But all failing miserably TT) I just wanted to express how I really love chansoo to the point that my day would start and ends with chansoo ; to the point that my mood was categorized by what was happening with them ; to the point that I could giggle and cry in disney princess movies/barbies/romantic dramas(even they said it ) ONLY if I would imagine chansoo being the main characters resulting all of the random plots going on my head but because I'm also a scientist writer(also age younger than you think and English is not my main language) I couldn't write it all up and I cringe when I read what I wrote before and have the urge to delete those up. Like really, I want everyone to fall in love with my otp because actually in the first place I had gotten to know chansoo, I don't even know how a 'ship' works in the kpop world and I thought chansoo was just being cute with each other. But then one day I jumped at the first ever fic I read about them and I dont even know how I ended up reading the whole fic but one thing I am certain of is the way the author wonderfully wrote about them, like they've known this is the way pcy and dks acts with each other offcam that they could express it clearly. And I want to be like that too. But then I need to work so many things to be in that level. Im trying to write a deep story with a plot like how my fave stories was written. Now, I am proudly presenting myself as a trash for them. Like seriously I could cry for them or thought of them 24/7 without boring myself out.

Until then, I am so sorry for my lack of skills ehe. I hope I'll be better off in the future! 

P.S : I think if you wanted to write a story, write it. You'll learn in the process. Specially those chansoo stans out there! Hwaiting with you! ^^