huft...this month was the most emotional month ever...

After Yoochun's Case...I wonder what will happen next if Jaejoong got discharge from military that would ber in December.

Junsu was got asked by media about Yoochun too. Well, it's better not to say anything.

This month I prepare a lot from my fanfiction for pairing focus in Yunjae.

It's my first time, but I already got many good respond for my first fic, although there's some of the part that still didn't quite right, so I make it to hiatu in moment.

The main for my Yunjae series is very dangerous subject. 

You know fanfiction from aquariouslover, misssanzo, beeswaxing, and so much more about DBSK in bandfic genre and postlawsuit or before like Fan Service? in AFF.

They are my favorite and I really love the way they wrote it.

And I want to make one too based with they aremy muse to write.

But I don't want make it kind of like fantasy. So I do research all of their lawsuit. It is really make my mental and physycal in chaos.

I alway tried to not touch JYJ song further. But yesterday I broke it.

I heard JYJ Music Essay, Park Yoochun Composing, Song Without Name Part 1.

And it totally make my mind more turned upside down.

I read again about lawsuit info, like cosmetic stuff, 625 meeting, Yunho and Changmin Father message, etc.

There's a lot different talked about it and almost like there's JYJ stan and TVXQ stan in there. 

I am trying to find more good resourch, because allkpop.com or soompi.com already make me don't believe what they wrote.

I even learned hangul for God Sake.

But, I believe with the boys said, because I forgot who said it, that we should believe when they were talked.

But it made the fans, who you know how many fans is DBSK have, truned to make assumpstion...it really turned bad.

But what I found is, from Yoochun song from Music Essay, I got a little clue, just 1%.

But what I still couldn't find is Homin in SM. 

Their information is really difficult to find than JYJ because I didn't know if what they were saying is script or not.

So, it was really limited 'till I couldn't mutter a singel word for Yunho and Changmin in my fic.

I guess, my fic would be challenge for me this time...