I was not here for such a long time. Of course private life has many obsticles for us and prevent us to create things in wich we can enjoy , not just me, but the rest of you all.

It looks i gave up on writing, and i thing its somehow true. I am still taking in my lost guts to start over some new rich homeless and to impress everyone but i need to be cleaver and to give to you the best drug on the planet, to give you mix of the love, lust, despair, violence,care and drama, to be not too much but just level above you can imagine it. It is hard.

My life has not changed since the last time i write here. I am still single, girl who is student of the second year now, and i am working in same time in order to pay scoolarship. Its hard but what is must to, its not hard to.

I am really trying to be socialised but i am still afraid of humans. I am really not friendly still, i have problems to fit into the mass, and i still often say stupid things which leads me to be ashamed myself off. I am still introvert , so unconfort to be alone, but so unconfort to be near the people. Still wish for friends but not letting anyone near me.

Year passed since the day i started writing here. I emotionaly fully recovered, i am not loving my past inspiration for quite long time. I did not saw him 6 months or more, i know he has other girlfriend and i am glad, he will not destroy my life anymore, he has another victim. I was in love many times, i guess i really have feelings inside me but i got dissapointed  because people i fell in love with, never never can return it. But it feels nice, feeling love and pain again since i thought that i am insensitive person from back there on.

My health condition is good, i can now hear good and in between of some pain there and here , i am fine. Like everything is finding its place from being thrown far away in past. I hope i will be able to find the new inspiration of mine and i hope it will not choke me. I hope i will start writing not because i got dissapointed in life again, but only because i have to share my piece with you all.

here i had good supporters and even few frends. Lets greet them and wish them all the best because you all deserve that. Greetings to hashimocca, nada, voddodoll, panda, daesung, and to all of the people who ever ever read and comment on my stories. You all are valuable. You all are worth.

See you next time, when our suns meet again

with love

Chaos