again I find myself awake. Like no, really I should sleep, but I can't. I don't have insomnia but somehow I find my self going to sleep at 9 in the morning . But to be honest I am a night owl, it's just that the night is so much more full. Full with people's dreams and fears and hopes(and freaky sounds in the kitchen) . 

I might be crazy but I miss school. I mean not that school is good, it's just that I miss seeing people and doing things and having a routine. I am thinking of starting to walk to get more fit but that's impossible while fasting, not unless I want pass out in the middle of the road (according to my dear mother) . 

Having a lot of siblings is tiring, I've got two older sisters and two younger brothers and gosh , pity me!! My older sisters ignore me and by younger brothers are brats, no kidding!! I mean, like I'm older that the oldest brother by SEVEN years, so it's not like we can hangout.

In total, I currently hate my life. I'm not suicidal or anything it's just that is not getting together. And it pisses me off. But then again ranting makes you feel good, so I shall continue.

Like my dear father is so pissing me off. I'm trying my absolute best to be good but like the mercury in tinned tuna is going to kill you,HA it's banned from the house. Oh you like this chili paste??? It's gonna desroy the lining of your stomach, it's banned!! Oh ha you like olives?? Guess what?? Since you like them, I'm banning them too !!! Like all my life he's been banning what I like, just to me, now I love music, so he banned it for me only, and my family listen to music all the freaking time!!! He banned anime as well!! Until like my birthday in October!!! I mean you may not know me, but when I say I love anime, I not kidding. It's my whole life along with kpop of course.

I'm gonna stop ranting since I may explode sometime soon. EEven though nobody is gonna read this it feels good to rant.