It's been six months without you, babe…

Immmmm… I know you won't check my blogs but I wanna make this… At least, someone will see and check this letter…

I thought I was about to die at that time… That first four months, I really look like a fool… But I think I can control myself now… I'm doing very well in last two months…

You know, i'm willing to come and say 'Hi'… But i don't want to at the same time… i don't know how you will chayy me again… Immmmm… i'm afraid of it… hahahhaha… you always freak me out everytime i came to talk… and i took it as a sign that you don't wanna talk with me… sadly…

Okay… Okay… actually… i didn't take my Medicine examination and i'm worried for the result now… if i ever get a supply, i will have to study for next six months… huuuuu… if you are here beside me, i don't know what you will tell me… scold me or encourage me… i don't know… i don't remember our conversations that much… i have a bad memory… aigoo…

haahaha… okay… i write this letter to you as i want you to know i'm missing you like always… i'm glad to see that you are happy with the ones you like… And thanks for adding me first too… coz i'm not sure i would add you at that time… i'm afraid of you won't accept me… hahahhaha…

final words… the weather is cold… sleep with blanket… take care when driving… it's raining almost everyday… and sleep more babe… your eyes are like panda… i saw you on your proton or whatever's wall…

what you do when you are lonely? what you when you are sad? do they take care of you? do they listen to you when you wanna complain of something? do they listen to your cry when you want to? are you still having nightmares? i'm worried…

Sorry… i should let you do whatever you want… Sorry for everything… Aigooo… Aigooo… but don't worry… i don't cry anymore… and i'm not blaming on you too… no matter how much you laugh at me at my back… 

At least… i still can see you from a very very far place… Now… Whenever i miss you, i go outside and look up the sky… you are there… my star… my bright star…