Hwayangyeonhwa Epilogue in Seoul has finally ended. 

From part one until Young Forever--they had grown a lot. 

Even though I wasn't there and I didn't stream the audio either, relying fully on twitter updates--my heart had hurt a lot. 

It's both joyous and saddening--to see them finally finished with this 'youth' themed era.

I wasn't there when they debuted, but still my feelings towards them are very strong. They always have a way to hit me hard at the heart--not because of their beuaty, their TV personality, nor their dances--but it's always their music. 

I was that kid that they had always described in their music, that kid who doesn't know what her dreams and her directions is but still working her of for nonsenses. I grew to like their trademark loud hiphop and rough rapping songs, even though I wasn't a fan of the genre before.

It was a little confusing when I Need U came out--it's a little too different from their usual songs and that time had fallen in love with Danger so much that I side-eyed the new song a little, when the truth is that everytime the song came up I immediately tear up. Just because the lyrics had hit me so hard at home that it feels almost like they're passive-agressively talking about me. The song was truly the reason that gotten me into keeping track of them after years of being a listener only. 

The two first album of the trilogy had killed me. I was in the middle of passing teenager phase and the adulthood phase and I cannot express how much I can relate to the album--the hard moments, the romance side, the being reckless youth side--it had almost felt like they know it all. 

As time goes and got much deeper into them, I grew a liking towards that one paticular rapper that always changed his hair color. The seven of them was very respectful and adore-able, that I wouldn't wonder if someone had told me that they can't choose a favorite among them because they're that stunning. But his parts in their every song had always slapped me in the face, that it made me searched up more about him and grew this adoration towards him. 

His rap, his lyrics, his songs--it always a head shot to me and how his talent was always oozing in each of their songs, I can't help to idolize him. His rap had finally made me stand back up again. Because of him, I drew again, I write again, I do more art that I had neglected in hopelessness before, I study much better--I grew up much better because of his music. 

I didn't even lie when I said I really cried when Young Forever's MV--his rap felt too real to me as if he had just literally described my current situation. It didn't help when the whole songs just perfectly voiced out my true current feelings, being a youth that her naive-ness had already been pulled away by the harsh reality of surrounding societies. 

It was very heartwrenching to see them crack up on stage--their honest feeling, their true tears of hardwork--they had believed us so much that they decided to show their real self in front of us without hesitation, the fact that the things they had done as agroup wasn't gone into waste. 

I didn't want to be sad as well, but when a small snippet of a fancam on their first encore song Young Forever--I choked up. He was tearing up in his part and the sublte hoarse sound as he rap just broke my heart so much that it was confusing to me that I had cared so much about someone that doesn't even know me and we're miles apart away. 

My tears, even though it's not a streaming waterfall, still dropped when the second day concert had just ended--his parents, for the first time had finally showed up in his concert that he finally really cried, bowing to the audience as he hid his tearful face. 

It's even to the point that I cannot bring myself to call him oppa--it's ridiculous because it is the right term for him from me because we're five years apart, but I had felt that the call was too romantic and my feelings for him was far above than just romantic. It's pure adoration that I know he's my true definition of someone that you can idolize. 

There's still more to come, but HwaYangYeonHwa era was so important to both them and the fans that it had break a lot of people, and how they had cried their hearts out at the end of the concert had perfectly described their hardwork. 

He had said that he never teared up on stage before, but this time, he finally deserved it. To let out his feelings. All of those sleepless times, all those hard moments you said in making the album when other members had chosen to share their joyest moments instead, all those sore feets since debut from the harsh practice--

It didn't gone into waste, right, Min Yoongi? 

I cannot describe how the whole era had finally bring me up back on my feet again, but I am very thankful that they had decided to go with this concept. It had inspire a lot of peopple including me to do more and I can't express how grateful that this group had exist in my life. 

This whole rant is cheesy, and felt so delusional that I spent so much time to cheer them on, but it's a neccesity for me to express my feelings. Even though I know that it probably wouldn't get to his ears, at least, people will know how talented and how daring he and his group is. 

Thank you for sharing your life stories through your lyrics.

Thank you for doing so much work just to impress us. 

Thank you for inspiring a lot of people with your music. 

Thank you, 방탄소년단.

Thank you, 민윤기. 

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