I've been thinking about this for a while now, but I recently watched BTS's new music video and it forced me to come to the realization that everything comes to an end.  

Love, ends. 

Happiness, ends. 

Life, ends. 

That is my biggest fear; death.  There was a time when I welcomed death with open arms and even ran after it, however, after realizing the joy that can be felt while living life I'm scared.

I'm scared to die. 

So many tears my eyes have shed while thinking about my life's end; I scared that I will not live the life I want to.  I'm scared that I will not be happy.  I'm scared that I will not love.  I'm scared that I will not be remembered.  The fear of death has pushed me into fearing life; a fear I thought I had overcome. 

No more. 

As of right now, this year, this month, this day, this minute, I will no longer fear.

I will not waste a single second on fear nor sadness; I do not have that time to waste.  I will do everything in my power and even beyond to live the life I want; I'll be damned if I don't.  Even if I am not loved I will give love incessantly and without forgiveness; I will let no person feel as if they are not loved.  I will demand myself happiness and give myself all I can because I have come to the realization that if I do not love and give happiness to myself I cannot give it to other people.  And most importantly,

I will be remembered.