Hey guys! I hope you all are having a great holiday break and are enjoying your time with your loved ones, or doing hatever it is your hearts desire! 

Well, let's just get on to the reason as to why I decided to update with this author's notice, instead of the regular chapter. Ever since I started writing this story, I had the mindset that my timing with the updates was very standard. And so, I paced myself with the updates and put out a chapter one every two weeks or so. However, now I realize that I've only posted four chapters in the span of two months, and that's honestly so ridiculous and doesn't nearly touch my expectation for myself as writer. And for that, I am terribly sorry and I hope you guys will continue reading this as I will further explain the timing of the updates. 

I've been thinking of telling you all my age, so that you can better understand my pacing as far as writing this story goes, but I've come down to the decision of not revealing my age, for personal reasons, and instead just allowing you guys to guess with this bit: I'm still in high school. Now, please do not take this the wrong way, I am not, in any means, trying to say that I shouldn't care enough to make this story a priority. In fact, this story is very important to me and I spend every waking moment of mine planning, jotting down ideas, and writing... basically because I have made this story a priority of mine; trust me. I mentioned that I am still in high school so that I could also bring up this: school and getting a proper education are also huge priorities of mine and it has been for as long as I could remember. I am trying to balance out my school work and my writing to the best of my ability. The moment I find out there's a substitute for one of my teachers, I whip out my laptop or journal to work on the update. The moment I have free time, I whip out my laptop or journal to write more of the update. However, nowadays I haven't been getting time to do such as I near important exams and harder to understand subjects, and as I take extra classes and have to go to dance class more than usual. Therefore, I haven't been writing as much as I used to... causing such slow updates. 

I'd like to also bring up something that has always bothered me with my writing: self-criticism. Yes, I understand that this can be an overall useful tool to help an apsiring writer, such as myself, grow and improve. However, no matter how much I write, how much I edit, how much I ask others for help, how long I stay up just to edit, I will never fail to find something that disables me from writing fluently any further. For example, I'll read over a part of my story that had taken me a few minutes to write and I'd immediately find something that irks me about it. Now, usually, I'd find out what's wrong, fix it and I'd ask my friends and they'd tell me that it's just fine. However, nowadays, even then I'd find it hard to be satisfied or confident in what I write. It just takes me so long to stop being insecure towards my writing and honestly, the more it happens, the more I just accept that I'll always be insecure towards all I do. That's where this whole mess of an author's notecomes into play. I'm also writing this to let you all know that although it may take me so long to write an update, I sincerely hope you find something within this story, just like I have, to stay and continue reading. However, if you, unfortunately, are unable to do so, I will try to not be disheartened if you decide to unsubscribe. I will continue to respect you and remain thankful towards you. 

I know I say this quite too frequently, but writing is very important to me and it's become such a large part of my life, not to mention a large part of who I am. Nobody, in their right mind, would ever let go of such a thing. Especially since writing is one of the only things I ever think to do for myself. With that being said, I would like to clarify that 

I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE UP THIS STORY NOR WILL I FAIL TO COMPLETE IT. 

THIS ALSO DOES NOT MEAN I AM TAKING A BREAK. I WILL CONTINUE TO WRITE THIS STORY.

No matter how long it will take me, I will finish this story.

For Asianfanfics

for Chanbaek

for myself

and last but definetely not least.... for you. 

Thank you if you've read up until this point, I know this whole note is such a mess >.< . I hope you guys are all doing well! May the upcoming years be full of happiness, hope, and positivity for the lot of you. Thank you for reading, once again. 

Until next time xx