"If you were given the chance to do something in the past, what would that be?" I asked in a cheeky voice on that guy one early morning in March. Just a few students were around and the sun barely shone any rays. It was a cloudy day after all, and I somehow hoped it would stay like that.

"I would've stopped you from doing that two years ago?" He mumbed back before offering a lollipop at me. I accepted it and sat beside him on the bench, enjoying the sweet treat. "Or probably I would've told you to stop playing around and be serious in life. You literally are throwing your life away. And it was all just for fun? Seriously though, you could do better than that."

I didn't know what to tell him so I just shrugged and continued the lollipop. When I was a kid, I learned that silence is a better way to deal with things. Not just because people can't get anything from you that way, it also irks them so double win for me. It's not that I was being a total jerk and all, I just like it... strangely... I like seeing people showing emotions. Maybe that way I would learn how to show mine.

"My life can't be thrown away though... You guys have it totally figured out." I just mumbled when I remembered his last statement. "I don't want any of this anyway but you forced me to. Why can't I return the favor? Wouldn't it be fun that way though?"

"Hey!"

"Brother, I've been the good daughter already. Can't I be the bad one this time instead?"

"B-but..."

"I know I was being immature... Your girl has cried a bucketful of tears last night thinking that you cheated on her. Your stupid friend, Jetron, hates you to guts now... I'm not the one who's done something wrong... You've been an *sshole too." I pointed out. Standing up, I stretched my arms wide and giggled seeing his serious expression. "Stop acting as if you regret everything. You know why you have to do that. Things were better left simple you know? It's either you play along the game or being played at. You chose the former obviously."

"It was all because of you... You wanted all of this right?"

I shrugged. "It was fun seeing you suffer while she suffers because of you. It's even more fun seeing your best friend practically despise you too. What's wrong with that?"

"How about you though? Are you happy of what you've become? A person pretending to be human...?"

Okay he must have hit the spot right there.

"You were the reason why I lost the ability to feel though...." I countered back, turning my body around. "In life it's either you live as a hero and die as a villain or vice versa."

"Hey..."

I didn't listen to him anymore as I went inside our classroom, lost in my own thoughts... He was right anyway. I know i was being too much but living a life that practically , sometimes you would have no choice. There's a reason why someone throws his or her life away... and sometimes it was all because of pain and sadness no one could've cured.