[WARNING: VERBAL ONSLAUGHT AHEAD. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.]  jkjk. there're some comforting words and advice at the back.

I know. I don't usually blog. But I guess, I just felt like I needed to get this inner-disaster out of my system before it gets out of hand...

I was just on the way home this afternoon when I received the news... I was going through Allkpop on my phone and I daresay I had the shock of my life...

kaistal is real and they're dating.

At first, I was just speechless. I literally felt my heart break a little. Thoughts like 'this can't be real', 'this must be an april fools' joke' and 'this is a mistake' were rapidly going through my head. Well, apparently, god hates me. This is definitely not a mistake. Kaistal dating is not an April Fool spoof. Not everything in our life goes the way we want it to be. Some people really have it all.. the looks, the body, the talent, and the perfect guy. In this case, I'm referring to our lucky Krystal. 

So, I was just depressed the whole journey home, slightly teary-eyed. When I reached home, I immediately abandoned all my things and started playing my piano as a distraction. Well, I kinda felt better afterwards, I guess. My sister was just so nice, being the great listener she is. She, herself, is Vixx's Leo biased and said she wouldn't know how it would be like if her idol was dating as well. So I guess, I'd moved passed the 'depressed-and-wallowing-in-self-pity' stage.

During my quiet moments of thinking, just thinking, I had an aha-moment: if I'm really a fan of Jongin, I should be happy for him, shouldn't I? Then, my friends (who knew about it after confiding with them) around me also comforted me, giving me the emotional support I needed. I felt better instantly. Even writing this, it feels like a great boulder has been lifted off my shoulders. 

I know, trust me, I know how it feels. It hurts, yes. Sure. But once you get over this, it feels great. Don't be so negative, look on the bright side of things. Read, do your homework, eat, play, go outdoors, watch a drama/show, do your thing, live your life. Don't be so put down that it affects your life/studies. Let me just quote Jongin, himself: 

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For those who are still clueless, you can tell.. I'm Kai-baised. And after much thinking and refreshing moments of 'letting go', I got over this issue. I'm done. I even think kaistal is cute. (well, haven't people always been shipping them together??)

If you ever need a listening ear, feeling sour about kaistal, or simply want someone to talk to, you can always approach me. I won't bite, I promise. You can pm me here on AFF (although, I might not be online as often) or you can follow me on my Tumblr @coldlights and message me! c; 

Thank you for reading this long rant/comforting words/advice. I really appreciate it c;

- Zoey xoxo

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