So I went to see an adviser today at school to take care of my financial aid situation about it being suspended. I needed it to be good to go again because I need the money for when I transfer. Long story short, its not permenantly taken away- just suspended cuz they didnt know if I was being a career student or taking classes for free for the fun of it. Its being processed and I should get it back ^^

So, I asked the lady while I was still with her about having to do my ACT/SAT testing for when I transfer over and if I had to take it considering I am transferring from another school. We went through the long school website and she said that it depended on where they wanted to place me.

Because of my status I am at, I would have to get accepted under a special review process. During that review process, they would consider either putting me in as an upperclassmen or a freshmen. If I am placed as a freshmen, everything that freshmen needs, is what I will need (HS GPA, transcripts, test scores). but if I was granted as a sophomore, I wouldn't need that.

I freaked out. 

My HS life was horrible. I had no intentions of going to college. I had no goals in life. My GPA is lower than a 2.0. ITS LOWER THAN A ING 2.0. I WAS AN F STUDENT. 

If they want me as a freshmen, I WOULD NOT GET ACCEPTED cuz I would need a 3.0. I HAD A 1.5 GPA IN HS!!!

So, I am currently flipping the out because I am at a 50/50. I can either be accepted or I will be declined. If I am declined, I would have to stay at the college I am at and graduate (AND TAKE UNNECESSARY CLASSES) to get my associates AND THEN TRANSFER. I would have to wait another 2 years to transfer and then have another 3 years at UNI. 

Honestly, if I don't get accepted into my school. I am probably going to drop out. 

I am so stressed.

I am so done.

I am just going to crawl into a little ball until the end of the semester until I know where I am standing with my new school.

I almost ripped up my stories because I am so upset.