one of my BFFS is not from America and she's gonna leave and never comeback I'm trying to stay strong for my other friend but I'm slowly falling apart because the way our friendship works we all balance each other out and well they  helped me through a lot things my frist crush and getting over him the frist time that I fell apart they put me back together and the second and the third they may not know it but each time my heart gets cracked or broken they heal it and I'm notcgoing to be able to be my normal happy weird and supportive self if she's gone she's one of my two wifes and one of the few people I would trust not only my life with but my heart my soul my whole being and everything that makes me me with so I'm getting a little sad and I feel stressed out like I might breakdown any second but I know that's not what she wants me to do she wants me to be and stay the happy awkward innocent weird unicorn I've always been as she has said even thou I kinda read and write u know but without her I'm not sure if anything will be the same T.T I just neede to express my feelings so I wouldn't breakdown suddenly we made a promise to stay together and we even made up our own kpop. Group