WARNING: THIS BLOG POST IS JUST GOING TO BE ME RAMBLING NONSENSE THAT YOU GUYS MIGHT NOT EVEN UNDERSTAND BUT I JUST NEED TO LET THIS OUT SOMEWHERE.

Reasons for venting my fustrations on this blog:

1:None of my friends are on this website.

2:I do not want anyone who knows me personally to know exactly what I am going through.

3:What's here stays here.

Hi! First of all, if any of my readers happen to read this blog post than good, cause this will explain why I've not been writing AGAIN for the past few months.

I've actually been going through a lot of stress ever since a few years ago, and at that time, my cousin introduced this website to me. It made me addicted to reading fanfictions and my love for K-POP grew even more. In a way, it kept me sane for quite a while, until my cousin started writing on this website and it made me think, why not let me try it too?

And I loved it.

Now, if you make me go back and read my first story, I would cringe at my writing style and all as I was only like what? 10 or 11? When I first started writing. Yes, I'm only a teen now. 17 years old this year to be exact. I'm very grateful to all thoses people who read, subscribe and comment on my stories. Even if you are just a silent readers, and I'm sure most writers feels the same way too. There are many times when I am very tempted to just press the delete button on my stories, but I just decided to keep it there for people to read if they want to.

Currently, I have 4 on-going stories, 2 under hiatus. Those 2 under hiatus, the chances of me going back to that stories is low as I am seriously at lost and have absolutely no idea what I shoudl do with it.

Ongoing stories::

Falling in Luv with ma Stepbrother Ver2: I am at quite a lost for this story too, but is not as bad as compared to version 1. At least I can still kinda see where I wanna go with this story, I just need to make sure to clear all the fog first before I step forward.

Operation:Dangerous Love: When I first started this story, I was realy excited as this will be my very first story that I'll be writing with a new style that I am confortable with. However, I proceeded too fast with this story as I went with my guts. In the end? It made me lost. So I decided to delete the last few chapters and rewrite it, changing the plot a little. But I'm not that hype to write this story for now as my love for ZE:A have been fading for qite some time now.

Mine: This was suppose to be a story between Tiffany and BTS Jungkook, but even before I can finalise the type of plot I want to for this story, my love for BTS faded ( I was obsessed with them for 1 month, even before they became supper popular like now ) and I turned to VIXX, which made the main character for the story change to Hongbin. This story will most likely be more of a high school romance with a some drama. Maybe something similar to Boys Over Flower? But I do not need to worry too much for this story as I've already written a clear plot for what I want to happen for this story, but I've only painted the big picture and now I'm worried at how I'm going to pain the small details which is very important. This means, I have no idea how I want each chapter to be like in details, however I've already plan the and some of the ending.

Brothel Love: Now this story was kinda inspired by a local drama here in Singapore. The drama does not revolve around the brothel setting however one of the character was working in a brothel for quite a while so it kinda inspire me, what if I made a story like this? So without myself know, I've already plan the characters and just wrote down some small details. I have more ideas for this story compared to Mine, both which are relevantly new stories of mine. Just bear with me for a while.

Hiatus stories::

Falling in Love with ma Stepbrother ver 1: I'm lost. I really am. I have no idea what I was thinking when I started it. The style is completely different from what I'm writing now, so if I decide to continue this story, the style will be very different, just letting you guys know.

The Arranged Marriage: If you guys have been with this story since the start, than you will know that I was actually the co-author of this story. I wrote this story along with SnsdFanForever( now she goes by nieeex if I'm not wrong ). It was really fun as it was my first time co-writing with someone. However I soon became the main author and I once again became lost. So I left it sitting there. Unitl,the same cousin who introduced me this website said she waned to help me and she became my co-author. However, I do know that her school workload is a lot, so I told her that it was okay to leave it and she can continue whenver she feel like it. However she lost her password to her account :") and she drifted away from K-POP and fanfics. The chances of me continuing this story is higher than FiLwmS ver 1 though, cause I've just when back to my message with the original writer( to find her new account name ) and found the original plot of the story. Plus, we've already change the style of the story in the last 2-3 chapters so it might be easier for me.

To this part, this is just me explaining what are my plans for my stories. I think I might stop writing new fanfics after I finished all these stories and maybe stick to oneshots.

Now these days, I've been back on this website a lot more to read or reread some of the stories I've subscribed in order to find back the inspiration that I had back than.

Once again I'm sorry for not updating new chapters.

I've just recieve some bad news from school, which have been going on for quite some time now. I know, I know, it's not the end of the world. And I have to go on, however it just makes me feel a bit better by typing this out to let out some steam. I've been appling to this somewhat like pre-uni school since I've recieved my results last year. However, I do not want to study an extra year in my middle school(  it is possible here in Singapore to take year 5 for some stream of students known as the NA students here, however I just want to move on ). But, I have been given 2 choices after I apply to the pre-uni school ( Poly,PFP Programme, for any confused SG readers ) I would need to stay at my middle school for an extra 1 month or move on to another pre-uni school ( ITE, under the DPP programme ) for a week or so before the results come out, which is today. However, I was not offered any of the course I wanted, instead I was given a enginneering course which I know absolutely nothing about.

Before I even went to ITE, I was even pursuading my mum that it was okay, it does not mean the end of the world( for any foregin readers, most parents, especially those older generation ones, view the ITE school as a no good school. And in the past, they will say "going to ITE is the end of the world!" ). Howver, after attending for just a week, I've already lost all of my motivation to study, so I have no idea how I am going to survive another 2 years there, plus I need to travel 1hr 30 mins every single day in order to go to school as the course I'm attending is only offered at the central.

Luckily, I am able to appeal again and I did, however I will only know my results on the 25 Jan. So now, after crying out for a bit, I do feel better. But knowing that I have to go to school again tomorrow, I kinda hate it. Of course, I have nothing against the school, I mean I met some great people there, be it seniors, classmates or teacher. Just not the math teacher cause everyone in my class really wants to give her the middle finger at all times. And the food there is awesome,haha.

I'm really tired of explaining the process to every single one of my relatives as this is a new programme that was launched only a few years ago, less than 5 years, so most of them do not now how the programme goes. Being in ITE is not bad though, I just need to meet my GPA for my first year than I'm guaranteed a place in Poly, which is the 1 I wanted to go however this process is longer.

I'm just feeling really afraid right now as I'm very lost at what I really want to do. I know that there are quite a few pathways that I can choose, however I'm afraid of choosing the wrong 1. I studies my off for this exam and I barely made into the programme. However I'm still grateful that I am able to be in this programme and now I just have to wait until monday to know my results ( praying really hard right now ).

I just got a new laptop! That's like the only good thing that is happening to my life now, lolz. My old laptop lasted 8 years, I know, woah! However it was really old and most website cannot be entered, or else it will freeze, and this website is included, explaining my ong hiatus a few year back then.

I have also been going through some family drama for the past few years, mostly between my mother and grandmother ( her mother-in law, i know i know ). I just felt like my grandmother have taken things a bit too far, especially in the recent years, however I do not wish to say anything about it here as my cousin is on this website ( i think, not sure if she is still here though ).

If you managed to read it till here, I'm both impressed and thankful that you are willing to read me typing nonsense. (YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED).

My journey on this website have been going on for a few years, although I've stopped for quite some time, I always find myself comign back. Mostly because I feel comfortable here. I've tried read fanfictions on other website like wattpad, however, it felt more like home here for some reasons. Haha, I feel like I was in those librarys with old and strict granny librians.

I'm back here for now, and now, I'm trying to find my inspiration to continue my fanfictions and my inspiration for life.

Wish me luck!