OH HOW I WISH TAETAE WOULD SAY THIS TO ME T_________T

Anyways, TIME FOR ANOTHER BANGTAN ESSAY! I have been having realllllllllyyyyyy bad Taehyung feels which I have mentioned before in my last Bangtan Feels post. I also thought since it is his birthday (December 30th, 1995. OMG HE'S ONLY LIKE 2 MONTHS OR SO OLDER THAN MEEEEE), I thought I could get out my escalating TaeTae feels as a tribute for his birthday. (God damn we're both gonna be 20, like where has the time gone?!). I am serious when I say this boy is ruining my life, my bias list, and my heart god dammit this boy needs to stop!!! >_<

First off, let us all just acknowladge how damn perfectly y handsome he is!!!!

OMG VAMPIRE TAE YES I AM READY OH MY BISCUITS T-T

Taehyung with this lollipop will be the death of me holy jesus christ buscuit on the front of a mercedes bendz!!!!!

I seriously think I have a problem XD BUT I DON'T WANT TO BE SAVED!!!! And since this is about expressing and confessing my Bangtan feels, in this case Tae, let me just confess right here that I read scenarios of him like every night like a freaking bedtime story XDDD And not the appropriate ones either!!!! XD I have basically read ALL of them by this point, I know because a couple nights ago I found myself scrolling through the tag on tumblr at around 1am and while scrolling all bored I was like "Ugh I read this one..This one too.Read it..Read it..Read it! I read all of these!" So now while I wait for some lovely new ones to come out, I've been settling with Chanyeol, Jimin, and Zelo for the time being. Do not question me! XDDD
I will also confess that I have accidentally ACCIDENTALLY found some uhh not appropriate stuff on youtube and I know I'm going to hell for it. Here's some advice, do not search "Taehyung " or "Taehyung y tributes" because you will be scarred for life like me and have a tomato red face for the rest of the day. I don't know how I got into that area of youtube, it just started with BTS vines and I somehow ended up there it's not my fault I am sorry Taehyung you are innocent and precious and I hope you never find those videos! XD

To cleanse myself of the sins I have recently committed, let us focus on cute Taehyung for a moment ^ _ ^


OKAY! I TRY LOOKING UP HIM BEING ALL CUTE AND FLUFFY AND ALL I GET IS A BUNCH OF Y TAE THROWN AT MY FACE! LORD WHY ARE YOU TESTING ME LIKE THIS?!

I AM SERIOUS LOOK! THIS IS ALL I ING SEE!

I DIDN'T ASK FOR THIS! >o<

AHHHHH KIM TAEHYUNG STAHHHHPPPPPPP!!!!

NUUUUUUUUUUUUUU LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEEE PLEASE GO TO CUTE PLEASSEEEE

ahh that's better ^ _ ^ cinnamon roll Tae is what we all know and love :3

HE IS TOO PRECIOUS! CINNAMON ROLL~~~~

TaeTae, please stop being so cute

Yay thank you babe ^ _ ^

Not to mention I call him babe all the time. I call a few others that but I call Taehyung babe the most XDD He's just such perfect boyfriend material!!! He's soooo sweet, HE CAN SINNGGGGGGG LIKE AN ANGEL HE IS TOO PURE!! He's and cute and WEIRD!!!

HE'S SO WEIRD AND I LOVE IT

BUT HE CUTE THO

As for I Needed Her, I am going to try my hardest to update it in time for his birthday! The latest will probably be January 1st or 2nd. But I am trying to aim for the 30th but I don't know. I'm just gonna have to type non stop like I did with that Chanyeol oneshot which fried my writing brain XD After I get all my fics updated I really want to go on a brief hiatus because again, writing brain is fried and I deserve that hiatus dammit! XD But for right now, i am going to try realllllllllly hard to get I Needed Her updated for babe's birthday like I did for mama Jin. This is gonna fry my writing brain again but the hard work is worth it to see readers liking it and of course babe's birthday! I AM DOING THIS FOR YOU TAE! XDDD His character though in INH is my favorite mostly because he goes through the most development and he is of course the main. I can't help but feel like the story does have a slow start so I worry that it's boring but I swear on Kim Taehyung's life that things will really start taking off when this next update comes and onward. It's just that when it comes to a story like this, a slow pace is important at first because this story focuses so much on the characters developing, basically changing a lot. So nearly all the characters are gonna change so much, especially Taehyung. The storylines in I Need U and Run are going to start really kicking in. Run is more in the second half of the story and you'll understand why when it happens. It's all hard to explain because I can't spoil anything! When Tae does his y stabby stabby, that will be when we're about halfway to more than halfway done. That won't be for a while so be patient. Taehyung still has lots of change to go through before he reaches that point (which we saw in the very beginning). I leave hints all the damn time, so you always have to read between the lines when it comes to my stuff, cuz sometimes I basically lay flat out what will eventually happen and people still miss it XD Especially stuff with characters XD I know I just ranted a lot about INH just now but it is a big part of my Tae feels since it contributed to starting it and I have no one to talk to this about with either so just squeeing it in! XD It's also gonna justify me spamming Taehyung I Need U and Run gifs take a hint

(ughhhhhh so handsome! T_____T)

oh my god that last gif is perfect for this fic!! At little foreshadowing for you ^^

Anyways, I think I got out a majority of my Taehyung feels today. So I'll just leave it at that...It really does seem like Taehyung is becoming my Bangtan bias now doesn't it?...XDDD I think my next Bangtan Feels will be for Suga since I've been having many different thoughts about him lately (talent wise). HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!