Tuesday, 14th July 2015

( the day I wrote this )

This world is getting scarrier and I get more afraid. I am afraid that one day I will lost myself, that I will become the one that everyone wanted me to be not the one that I want to be. A lot of people said that life is like riding a bicycle. Sometimes you will fall, Sometimes there is someone who make you fall, sometimes you are the reason of someone's falling. Some of them said that life is you journey, you have to enjoy it, but I don't think so.

My life is my parents' courtney. I will always do something that will make them please not something that will make me feel please. These days people are string to stick theirselves to the people who get so much money or power. Love becomes an easy word tht everyone can tell without feeling. People will store at you even you are doing the right thing. People will make you become a stone so they can step on you and jump higher than you. People will made you dive desperate and tell you to bring them a pearl.

Sometimes I am too director get up. I just want to stay in my bed and cry. I am really afraid of this world. Laung, chuckle, and giggle are suppossed to be a happy feeling but now I am more afraid of it. That action makes me feel that they are looking down at me. Almost everyday I heard the sound of crashing, banging, and noise. They said that world war is already finish but why I feel that everyday is a world war for me. There is no peace nd the selfishness is getting higher.

I get lost, pieces by pieces, slowly but sure. I get lost of myself in this world.