Promos you won't hate? 

*puppy dog eyes* thank you!

This is gonna be emotional for those of you who don't know the story.

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as I have somewhat touched on, I was not always the hair colour I am today. I was ginger 3 years ago, it was natural and really nice. 

Unfortunately many people thought I was weird because of my unusual hair colour and decided to bully me for it. I was never clinically diagnosed with depression but it was there. I became distan from people, I'd lock myself in my room for hours on end, and I had tried to commit suicde once or twice. 

To be honest, writing this is making me cry, you don't have to care or anything but I would like to be slightly more open with you all. Yes my family know, yes I got help, yes my friends know. But to be honest I don't feel like I can trust people anymore. 

You know it's hard for me because I've killed my natural colour and stuff, and I can never really be me. 

I guess you could say I've gone back into that state, i have not slept in weeks or eating properly. Nor have I fully communicated how I feel to another human. I have had rather dark thoughts during my sleepless nights. 

I don't want you to hate because you think I'm faking it. I'm not. I really just need to let this out and I unfortunately bottle up for so long that I end um rambling... Like now.

thank you for reading this. I'm sorry to make you waste your time.