I just wanted to write out my feelings. So I got a summer job for the summer and I got in a relationship back in November. We've been going on for about 7 months and a half. I always try to talk to him through social media like facebook or snapchat. Sometimes all we just do is to say "I love you" back and forth or we say how much we love each other or we say who loves who more. It can get boring if we do it constantly. I dont have a problem doing that, I love it when we do that. We talked last night, he mentioned about how we are not going to hang out as much becuase of my job and I only have my weekends free. He told me about this dream where he loses feelings for me because we dont see each other as much. I get weird dreams he didn't love me anymore and as soon as we ended he started a new relationship. I guess we are both afraid of losing each other. I want this realtionship to last but is it really going to. I tell myself this every day as my job days get closer and closer to not think about the bad things that could happen to our relationship. I do get depressed prettly easily and I need a lot of encouragment to get my mind off things. I am a hard friend to deal with when it comes to feelings and emotions, people dont know that about me becuase I do a good job at hiding it.

Another thing he mentioned was that what if I meet this cute guy at work and I become close friends with him then I start develping feeling for him. Same goes for me, I am afraid that he is going to see this cute or hot girl in the park and maybe that girl will hit on him too. I mean whats not to like about him? He plays handball a lot and it kinda takes him away from me. It bothered me at first but now I got use to it.

I really want this relationship to last. I know we are only in high school but I can have my feelings too. I want to last with him for a long time. We spent so much time together I dont want all that to go to waste. I really do love him a lot. He will always be my babe, baby boo, and my cuddles bear.