Being an author has always been a dream of mine, to write books for a living yet at the same time I love history as well so the thought of studying to become a historian has been in the back of my mind as of late. There is just one little or big problem though...
School was a struggle for me. Not academically, I got pretty decent if not average grades like B's and C's with some A's thrown in...no D's or F's but it was more of a 'different' problem. Anxiety. Everyday it was a struggle for me to get up in the morning and get going: It was bad to the point that I would actually feel sick to my stomach or actually become sick. I would stutter like a fool everytime I talked to someone and...yeah you get it.
I know that in order to become a historian you have to have some kind of college degree right? That's what my fear is. What if I do decide to go to some university but I quit in like two or three weeks in? Yet at the same time, a little part believes that maybe it will help my anxiety just a bit...I don't have a clue.
I just love being around history. Watching people like the host of Mystries at The Museum, Don Wildman inspired me to increase my love for learning about the past even more than before. I really don't want my fears to stop me from accomplishing my goals...what should I do?
Any advice would be greatly appreciated