Dear father

To me, this song has a very special meaning because my father also left my mother and I along with my two siblings alone for another woman. Things haven't been great between us and right when I was ready to tell him my feelings and thoughts, he looses it and screams at me. I was afraid of him, I thought he was going to hit me. But, he said something that bothered me so much. He said,"I've been very patient with you. Get over it. I made a mistake, I know, but get over it." I went mad. I cried and screamed because he didn't know that what he was saying was not so easy to do in real life. 

 

I wanted to yell at him and say,"'Get over it?' You've been patient? How dare you say that. No, I won't ing get over it. This will be with me for the rest of my life. Not once, when I tried to explain myself, did you let me speak. Is that what you call patient? The fact that you had a choice. Stay with us, your family and put it all behind, or go with an immature woman who knew nothing. I cut myself because of you, I pressure myself to do well because of you, I have bipolar-depression because of you, and you tell me to be ing patient?  you. Maybe you should have left me just like you said you would. Maybe you should never talk to me again. I can live happily without you. I don't need you in my life. All I need is my mom. My mom is the one who cares. You don't even know how to calm me down when I'm angry, how are you even my dad? I lost all respect for you four years ago, all. Don't try talking to me about being patient because I can be patient very well. Don't talk to me again, don't even look for me. You're done."

 

I honestly can't wait for the day I can say this to him. He deserves to feel what he put me through, be deserves to be pit through pain. For everything that he did. 

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Damina66
#1
I really really want you to say it to him... Maybe you could write him a letter if he doesn't want to talk to you?!
Fighting!! :* <3<3<3<3
soft-kitty #2
It's sad....to think that sometimes one persons "happiness" must come at the expense of others at around them.
HannyHanisah
#3
I know what are you feeling right now, its kinda hard for you to face this kind of problem. Let me just hug you so you can feel better and can do the right decision at the future ya?? /le hugs/
magicalkpop
#4
Tell him Zitaly! You deserve to let it off your shoulders!!! All those bottled up feelings! He has to know! He HAS to know!! I'm so sorry... I'm not trying to pressure you!
I love you Zitaly!!!
We don't know each other and I know it's weird but my policy is that every one needs to love and to be loved, well treated and just.... just Loved!!!
I really love you my dear dongsaeng!! I'm always! ALWAYS HERE IF YOU NEED TO TALK!
I'm entirely sincerely sincere right now! I love you young sister!! *kissu heartu*
sajerry #5
Dear let me tell you,I don't know my father at all I have seen him one day when I was 7 and in a month he passed away.he doesn't do any bad thing to me like your dad,but when I look up there is nothing that is bad rather than losing my father for my hole life.I don't even know my mom till I was 14.but there is nothing I can say for her.I have so many thing to say.
And here I am living this moment with out a care to anyone,whatever happen to you, you should be strong for your self,nobody can do that.you know that we all want our time even from the one we love right?.

My advice for you is don't let his word to get you,if his word and the life he give you is the only thing in your mind I suggest you to remove that from your mind because that only let you hate yourself not only your dad.

Thinking about hurting someone is only bring you more nightmare's.just live the life that written for you,you might don't know but there is a point that makes your dad to regret his choice one day.

Think about your future and make yourself happy by whatever you want.ease don't think of revenge anymore because that only give you pain even if you hurt him.
(Am sorry I say a lot,and sorry for my bad English I just want to help you with something. Hope you don't mind me.)

DON'T FORGET THERE IS SOMEONE WHO LOVES YOU.
KpopLuver404
#6
This made my lip trimble in sadness because PARENTS can also be bullies too....
Violet_Joker
#7
May I know what song you were referring to?

And dear, it gets better. You may not see it and that line may be so cliche but its a line I hold on to every single day because sanity is slipping away but you will never fade away. So hold on because you are a whole lot more stronger and better without him, better than him and that immature woman. Trust me your happiness will come and all this bullsh--stuff will come to an end. fightinggggggg ♡
alwaysmile9
#8
same thing goes to me but it's my mother who left me and my siblings. stay with my father.
my mother is a workaholic person so ..yeah.thing went wild and bammmm divorced. :p
LeeRaeni #9
*sniff* I'm not crying *sniff* I'm just sweating from my eyes.

But seriously, I feel bad for you. From what I read, your father didn't seem to treat you right. Also, him leaving you, your mother and your siblings for another woman is unforgivable. I really do hope you feel better. Stay strong because you also have another set of family members here on AFF. I know that just sounded weird and cheesy, but keep up the good work. Your stories entertain people (And satisfies them if ya know what I mean).
HoneyWithABun
#10
can we just live together?
*huggles*